Deep green plum routine

Chapter 44

Gu Mian has walked the stairs of Zhang Suqin's house many times, so many times that she can point out which steps have cracked floor tiles and which corners have marks with her eyes closed.

She walked so many times, but never once was as difficult as today.It's as if there are heavy iron balls tied to the feet, and it takes a lot of effort to take every step.

The door of Mu Jin's room was closed, and Gu Mian stood outside the door, raising and lowering her hands several times.Time passed by, she took a few deep breaths, and finally mustered up the courage to knock on the door in front of her.

"The door is not locked." Mu Jin's cold voice came from the room.

Gu Mian half opened the door, poked her head in first, "Xiao Jin, it's me."

Mu Jin was reading a book, when she heard this, she raised her head and glanced at Gu Mian, then quickly turned her eyes to the book again: "Oh."

Gu Mian was not sure what her "oh" meant, neither advancing nor retreating.She thought for a long time, and finally came up with a nonsense: "Are you reading?"

Mu Jin didn't even raise her head this time: "Yes."

The room fell into silence again, Gu Mian stood at the door, wanted to say something but didn't know where to start.

There was a cool wind blowing in from outside, and she belatedly thought that she could enter the room, so she pushed open the door and walked in lightly.After entering, she still didn't speak, just stood there stupidly.

In the end, Mu Jin couldn't read it anymore, closed the book and asked, "What's the matter with you?"

"I...I...I'm here to apologize to you." As soon as this sentence was out of my mouth, the rest of my words became much smoother, "I was wrong about what happened today, I shouldn't hit Liang Hao on the spur of the moment, I shouldn't have misunderstood your kindness, and I shouldn't have yelled at you to make you angry. Xiaojin, I was wrong, and I hope you can forgive me."

"You are wrong? Forgive you?" Mu Jin looked at Gu Mian and smiled mockingly, "You are wrong, but why should I forgive you after you apologize?"

This is the first time Gu Mian has seen such a sharp Mu Jin, like a hedgehog full of poisonous thorns, people dare not approach it at all.She was stunned for a while, and then said at a loss: "I didn't mean that...you don't have to forgive me, this is my fault, I know you are very angry, you can beat me and scold me..."

Gu Mian couldn't continue talking, she looked at Mu Jin, as if she was about to cry in a second: "Xiao Jin, you should beat me and scold me, please don't ignore me, okay?"

Mu Jin sneered and said, "Is it important that I ignore you? Anyway, I am a person who can get angry with my friends in order to protect the boys I like."

Gu Mian retorted emotionally and loudly: "You are not that kind of person, I know, you said those words for my own good! It's also very important whether you ignore me, because you are the one I want to cherish the most and the one I love the most. A good friend I don't want to lose."

Mu Jin slowly put away her sneer and returned to her usual expressionless face.She looked at the desk in front of her, and after a while she said: "It's getting late, you go back, I'm going to rest."

Gu Mian didn't want to leave, but dared not leave.She moved her footsteps a little bit, delaying time by talking: "Then Xiaojin... can I come to see you tomorrow?"

"No need," Mu Jin finished, and continued without waiting for Gu Mian to speak, "Just wait for me where we usually meet."

Mu Jin's attitude is vague, and Gu Mian is not sure whether she has forgiven herself or not.But now she didn't dare to ask, so she could only say dog-leggedly: "Okay, I'll wait for you there tomorrow. Go to bed early, good night."

Mu Jin didn't respond to her good night, but just said "Help me close the door".

Gu Mian drooped her head, like a disliked puppy.She pulled the doorknob and closed the door a little bit.She kept her head down, so she missed Mu Jin's meaningful eyes in the room.

Going downstairs, Gu Mian cheered up and said hello to Zhang Suqin: "Grandma Zhang, I'm going back first."

Zhang Suqin asked enthusiastically to stay: "Why did you go back so soon? Let's play a little longer."

"No, I have to go back and take a shower."

Zhang Suqin sent Gu Mian outside the door, and patted her on the shoulder before leaving: "Mianmian, don't take what Xiao Jin said to heart, her child has a weird temper, and sometimes it may be tiring to deal with. If If she has something bad, you can tell grandma, and grandma will mention it to her, but I hope you will not be disappointed in her because of her temper."

Gu Mian repeatedly waved her hands and said, "No, no, grandma Zhang, don't say that. Xiao Jin is fine, this time I did something wrong to make her angry. Don't worry, as long as Xiao Jin doesn't take the initiative to push me away, I will definitely won't ignore her."

Zhang Suqin touched Gu Mian's head and said with emotion: "You are a good boy, it is her blessing that Xiaojin can meet you..."

Gu Mian touched her nose with a guilty conscience: "It should be said that meeting Xiaojin is my blessing."

Zhang Suqin raised her head and glanced in the direction of Mu Jin's room: "Actually, Xiao Jin attaches great importance to you, and she feels uncomfortable arguing with you. Because of the quarrel with you, she didn't eat much tonight."

Gu Mian's eyes lit up: "Really?"

"Of course it's true. After all, Xiao Jin is just your friend." Zhang Suqin said, "You can have a good chat with her tomorrow. There is nothing you can't understand between friends."

Gu Mian nodded vigorously: "Yes."

Because of Zhang Suqin's words, Gu Mian walked a lot more lightly.She thought that she must behave well tomorrow, and try to get Mu Jin to forgive her as soon as possible!

The next morning, Gu Mian was wearing sportswear and waiting for Mu Jin at the intersection. You must know that Mu Jin is usually waiting for her, but this is one of the few places where she waits for Mu Jin.

The temperature was low in the morning, but Gu Mian still felt cold even after rubbing her hands and stomping her feet.She thought of how Mu Jin waited for her in the past, and her heart suddenly felt sour.

"Sorry, I'm late." Mu Jin's voice came from behind, with obvious panting.

Gu Mian opened her eyes and said nonsense: "It's okay, I've only been here not long."

Mu Jin took a deep breath and asked Gu Mian, "Are you ready for the activity?"

Gu Mian nodded.

"Then let's go." After Mu Jin finished speaking, she took the lead in running.

Gu Mian scratched her head, and ran after Mu Jin.

The morning in the countryside is very quiet, there are no sounds of vehicles and whistles, but only cheerful birds and dogs barking from someone.

On the way to run, Gu Mian wanted to talk to Mu Jin, but she was interrupted by Mu Jin saying "Don't talk while running".She pursed her lips and shut her mouth obediently.

It was the same on the way to school afterwards, when Gu Mian spoke, Mu Jin either didn't respond, or occasionally responded very perfunctorily and coldly.

Gu Mian was most afraid of Mu Jin's lukewarm attitude, and was tortured all day long.During class, she gritted her teeth and looked at Liang Hao's back, wishing she could stare him out.

If it wasn't for Liang Hao, she wouldn't have made Mu Jin angry, and Mu Jin wouldn't have been so indifferent to her.All of this happened because of Liang Hao, but he himself lived as if nothing had happened.

The more Gu Mian thought about it, the angrier she became, and she was so angry that she wanted to jump up and beat Liang Hao violently.But she can only think about it - Mu Jin is still angry because of her beating.

After a few days like this, Mu Jin has always been indifferent to Gu Mian.You want to say that she ignores people, but when you talk to her, she has to respond.But if you want to say that she cares about others, she has always been indifferent.

Gu Mian also admitted her mistake, and spoiled her, and she almost hugged Mu Jin's thigh and cried bitterly, but Mu Jin was still the same.

Gu Mian had no choice but to ask her friends for help.The first person she thought of was Xiao Sisi, because Xiao Sisi was the only reliable one in her circle of friends.

"You and Xiao Jin quarreled? Impossible?" Xiao Sisi's first reaction was to not believe what Gu Mian said.

Gu Mian said dejectedly: "It can't be called a quarrel, I unilaterally made her angry."

"But those words you said are really hurtful. You should know best how Xiaojin treats you."

"I know I was wrong, and I admit it. But it's been several days, and Xiao Jin still refuses to forgive me."

Xiao Sisi said: "I think she didn't forgive you because you didn't recognize your mistakes."

"Didn't recognize the dot?" Gu Mian was puzzled, "How should I recognize the dot?"

Xiao Sisi asked: "You said you were wrong, but did you tell Xiaojin why you were wrong?"

Gu Mian shook her head.

"So, you should tell her all this. You just say that you are afraid of losing her, so she will understand you."

Gu Mian lowered her head and looked away: "But I can't say it."

Xiao Si thought for a while and said, "Why don't you just write, write down all your thoughts, and then show Xiao Jin."

"Write?" Gu Mian hesitated, "Is this possible?"

"Sure, after all, it's not that Xiaojin really doesn't want to talk to you."

Xiao Sisi's words "After all, it's not that Xiao Jin really doesn't want to talk to you" gave Gu Mian strength. After finishing homework with Mu Jin in the afternoon, she went home early to write a letter.

Tear off a page from Xiao Zhenhui's notebook and spread it out, Gu Mian picked up a pen and wrote: "Xiao Jin: Hello."

After writing these words, she felt that saying "Hello" seemed too silly, so she tore off another piece of paper and planned to write it again.

——Xiao Jin: See Xin'an...

——Xiao Jin: I am Mianmian...

——Xiaojin: Sorry...

After tearing up more than a dozen pages, Gu Mian still hasn't finished writing the beginning.She collapsed on the desk and kept hitting the desk with her head.

"Yo, what about masochism?"

Gu Mian looked up at the door, and said weakly, "Mom..."

"What are you doing?" Xiao Zhenhui walked into the room, "I don't cook dinner, and you tore up so many pages of my account book."

Gu Mian lay face down on her stomach, and said with nothing to love: "I'm writing a letter."

Xiao Zhenhui showed a gossip expression: "Write a love letter?"

Gu Mian was helpless: "A letter of apology to Xiaojin."

Xiao Zhenhui gloated and said, "Xiaojin hasn't forgiven you yet?"

Gu Mian said stiffly: "Forgive me, I just want to apologize again solemnly."

Xiao Zhenhui didn't expose her: "Then have you finished writing it?"

"No..." Gu Mian motioned Xiao Zhenhui to look at the pile of waste paper with her eyes, "I haven't even finished writing the beginning."

"It's just the beginning, why are you struggling?" Xiao Zhenhui patted Gu Mian's head, "The most important thing in writing a letter is not the beginning or the end, but the heart. As long as you really put your feelings into writing this letter , even if your wording is as bad as shit, it's still a very successful letter."

Gu Mian seemed to understand but half understood: "It means that I don't need to write the beginning, right?"

"Write it or not, it's up to you." Xiao Zhenhui knelt down to Gu Mian's understanding ability, "Take your time to think about it, I'm going to cook."

After Xiao Zhenhui left, Gu Mian stared at the blank paper in front of her for a while.After she finished thinking, she picked up a pen and wrote down the first line carefully:

Little Hibiscus:

My mother said that the most important thing in writing a letter is not the beginning or the end, but the heart.I don't know what to start with, so I won't write the beginning...