cool person

Chapter 20

Li Fei held the medical record book, her throat felt a little tight.

The middle-aged doctor in front of him, with short curly hair and a kind face, told her about Lin Yueshan's condition in a gentle voice.

"There are still many treatment methods for adenomyosis at present. Please talk to your friends. If she is still young and wants to have children in the future, she can only use drugs to relieve the monthly pain and bleeding. According to Her uterus can only be this size for the time being."

Li Fei nodded, "I see, thank you teacher, no, Doctor Qi."

Dr. Qi patted Li Fei on the shoulder, with deep eyes, "Li Fei, you are a good boy. The teacher believes that what happened back then was not your fault."

"Teacher, thank you." Li Fei was very moved. When everyone was busy with sentencing her, her teacher still believed in her.During her short college career, what Dr. Qi taught her will be of use throughout her life.

Dr. Qi looked at Li Fei with concern in her eyes. In her impression, Li Fei was a confident and sunny girl, but now Li Fei has a social atmosphere all over her body. She understands that the experience of these years has made Li Fei look different. A lot, psychologically and temperamentally.But she doesn't want her cheerful and lively proud student to degenerate.

"Li Fei, there are no difficulties in life, you still have to cheer up and look forward."

"Hmm." Li Fei lowered her head, feeling mixed feelings in her heart. "Teacher, I don't know where my problem is. I understand many things, and I try to let go of some things. But when I let go of those things, I feel empty, and my perception of external objects becomes numb. Sometimes My memory will still become poor. But when the bloody past reappears in front of me, I will be irritable again, wishing to destroy them and myself. Sometimes I also wonder if I have depression or something, but these are in her opinion It has improved a bit since then.”

"Is that the one in the ward?"

"..." Li Fei said, "Yes."

Her future is empty, and what people fear most is living meaninglessly.

Until later Lin Yueshan suddenly appeared, always putting on a debt-collecting face, as if someone owed her a lot.I always work overtime until late at night before returning home, always frowning without saying a word, and writing my emotions clearly on my face.

Her pride and her success made Li Fei feel inferior and frustrated.So for a long time, Li Fei just started talking to Lin Yueshan out of the relationship between her old classmates so as not to cause too much embarrassment between the two, and did not think that their cohabitation would cultivate a deep relationship between them.

Li Fei walked into the ward, Lin Yueshan was still lying on the hospital bed quietly, Li Fei reached out to stroke her somewhat messy hair, and looked at Lin Yueshan's finely crafted face like a work of art.Sighed softly: "Why work so hard? It's all right now."

"Lin Yueshan, I..." Li Fei hesitated to speak.He hesitated for a while, but finally did not speak out.

"I'll go home and get my things first." Li Fei quickly ran out of the ward.After explaining some things to the nurse, she went home. She was still wearing dirty clothes, the door of the house was still open, and Lin Yueshan hadn't taken out a change of clothes after being hospitalized.

right!She must go home immediately.

Li Fei went home in a daze, and when he entered the door, he was tripped by Laicai who was guarding the door, "Ouch!"

"卬~卬~" Laicai screamed miserably under her pressure.

Li Fei stood up clutching her knees, and Laicai approached her with her tail between her legs. Li Fei cursed in a low voice, "Damn! You should find a conspicuous place to guard against thieves. The thief dares not come in when he sees you as soon as he enters the door. You can’t guard against this, Brother Cai! ”

Laicai shook his tail aggrievedly, Li Fei picked him up, rubbed the fur on his neck and said softly, "Are you hungry? I'll make you something to eat right away. Lin Yueshan is sick and I don't have time to take care of you these two days. I'll take care of you tomorrow. Send it to Jay Chou, and pick you up when Lin Yueshan is better, okay?"

Laicai licked Li Fei's fingers, and Li Fei said with satisfaction: "You are so good! Come, I will make you your favorite ham rice."

Laicai ham rice was eaten with relish, Li Fei squatted in front of it, looked at it, and began to talk to herself.

"Come on, come on, did I drink too much? Or did I smoke too much? Or caused my brain to go wrong and hormone secretion disorder? Otherwise, why do I always have fantasies about Lin Yueshan? I'm still a little addicted." Li Fei smiled self-deprecatingly: " People at my age and in this situation... I have given up on myself, why should I appear so untimely and disturb me to eat and die."

She babbled, lit a cigarette and brought it to her mouth, and the smoke drifted away and disappeared above her head with a sigh in her throat.

Laicai finished the meal in the dog bowl.He looked at Li Fei with unsatisfied interest, and licked the oily shine on his nose.Wanting to lick Li Fei's nose again, Li Fei grabbed its dog's mouth and said, "I hate it."

Early the next morning, Li Fei handed over the money to Zhou Jieli and hurried to the hospital.

Li Fei pushed open the door of the ward, and Lin Yueshan had already woken up, standing barefoot in front of the window, her whole body was pitifully haggard.

"Go to bed and lie down, you'll catch cold easily like this."

Lin Yueshan turned her head: "I thought you threw me in the hospital and ignored me."

Li Fei twitched in embarrassment, it really seemed like she could do it.

Li Fei: "When did you wake up?"

"Three o'clock, and then I have been waiting for you."

After hearing this, Li Fei felt a little guilty for no reason. She should wait for her to wake up or leave a note or something.

"You may have to stay in the hospital for a few days. I'll go home and get some things, and arrange the money by the way."

"..."

Li Fei put the pair of slippers by Lin Yueshan's feet, looked at the floor and said to her, "That... I'm sorry that day, I shouldn't lose my temper with you, it was a fact... I was too hypocritical."

Lin Yueshan smiled wryly, "Is it because I'm sick, so you accommodate me?"

Li Fei: "No"

"I already know about adenomyosis. Li Fei, which treatment method do you want me to use?" Lin Yueshan approached Li Fei, and the two were very close.

Li Fei stretched her breath, tried to calm her heartbeat, and told her several treatment options that Dr. Qi had mentioned.Then he generously expressed his thoughts: ""

"But what if I told you that even if I didn't have this disease, I wouldn't have children in the future?" Lin Yueshan interrupted her, "Do you think I will suffer for the rest of my life in vain?"

Li didn't understand, what does it mean that even if there is no illness, there will be no children in the future?

Lin Yueshan: "Didn't understand?"

"Nowadays, medicine is very advanced, and even some cancers can be cured." Li Fei thought that Lin Yueshan had other diseases that would affect her. "Not here, we can"

Sure enough, it didn't make sense, Lin Yueshan was a little tired.

"You close your eyes."

Li Fei: "?"

Lin Yueshan covered Li Fei's eyes with her hand, wrapped her other hand around Li Fei's waist, and kissed Li Fei slightly on tiptoe.

Li Fei held the medical record book, her throat felt a little tight.

The middle-aged doctor in front of him, with short curly hair and a kind face, told her about Lin Yueshan's condition in a gentle voice.

"There are still many treatment methods for adenomyosis at present. Please talk to your friends. If she is still young and wants to have children in the future, she can only use drugs to relieve the monthly pain and bleeding. According to Her uterus can only be this size for the time being."

Li Fei nodded, "I see, thank you teacher, no, Doctor Qi."

Dr. Qi patted Li Fei on the shoulder, with deep eyes, "Li Fei, you are a good boy. The teacher believes that what happened back then was not your fault."

"Teacher, thank you." Li Fei was very moved. When everyone was busy with sentencing her, her teacher still believed in her.During her short college career, what Dr. Qi taught her will be of use throughout her life.

Dr. Qi looked at Li Fei with concern in her eyes. In her impression, Li Fei was a confident and sunny girl, but now Li Fei has a social atmosphere all over her body. She understands that the experience of these years has made Li Fei look different. A lot, psychologically and temperamentally.But she doesn't want her cheerful and lively proud student to degenerate.

"Li Fei, there are no difficulties in life, you still have to cheer up and look forward."

"Hmm." Li Fei lowered her head, feeling mixed feelings in her heart. "Teacher, I don't know where my problem is. I understand many things, and I try to let go of some things. But when I let go of those things, I feel empty, and my perception of external objects becomes numb. Sometimes My memory will still become poor. But when the bloody past reappears in front of me, I will be irritable again, wishing to destroy them and myself. Sometimes I also wonder if I have depression or something, but these are in her opinion It has improved a bit since then.”

"Is that the one in the ward?"

"..." Li Fei said, "Yes."

Her future is empty, and what people fear most is living meaninglessly.

Until later Lin Yueshan suddenly appeared, always putting on a debt-collecting face, as if someone owed her a lot.I always work overtime until late at night before returning home, always frowning without saying a word, and writing my emotions clearly on my face.

Her pride and her success made Li Fei feel inferior and frustrated.So for a long time, Li Fei just started talking to Lin Yueshan out of the relationship between her old classmates so as not to cause too much embarrassment between the two, and did not think that their cohabitation would cultivate a deep relationship between them.

Li Fei walked into the ward, Lin Yueshan was still lying on the hospital bed quietly, Li Fei reached out to stroke her somewhat messy hair, and looked at Lin Yueshan's finely crafted face like a work of art.Sighed softly: "Why work so hard? It's all right now."

"Lin Yueshan, I..." Li Fei hesitated to speak.He hesitated for a while, but finally did not speak out.

"I'll go home and get my things first." Li Fei quickly ran out of the ward.After explaining some things to the nurse, she went home. She was still wearing dirty clothes, the door of the house was still open, and Lin Yueshan hadn't taken out a change of clothes after being hospitalized.

right!She must go home immediately.

Li Fei went home in a daze, and when he entered the door, he was tripped by Laicai who was guarding the door, "Ouch!"

"卬~卬~" Laicai screamed miserably under her pressure.

Li Fei stood up clutching her knees, and Laicai approached her with her tail between her legs. Li Fei cursed in a low voice, "Damn! You should find a conspicuous place to guard against thieves. The thief dares not come in when he sees you as soon as he enters the door. You can’t guard against this, Brother Cai! ”

Laicai shook his tail aggrievedly, Li Fei picked him up, rubbed the fur on his neck and said softly, "Are you hungry? I'll make you something to eat right away. Lin Yueshan is sick and I don't have time to take care of you these two days. I'll take care of you tomorrow. Send it to Jay Chou, and pick you up when Lin Yueshan is better, okay?"

Laicai licked Li Fei's fingers, and Li Fei said with satisfaction: "You are so good! Come, I will make you your favorite ham rice."

Laicai ham rice was eaten with relish, Li Fei squatted in front of it, looked at it, and began to talk to herself.

"Come on, come on, did I drink too much? Or did I smoke too much? Or caused my brain to go wrong and hormone secretion disorder? Otherwise, why do I always have fantasies about Lin Yueshan? I'm still a little addicted." Li Fei smiled self-deprecatingly: " People at my age and in this situation... I have given up on myself, why should I appear so untimely and disturb me to eat and die."

She babbled, lit a cigarette and brought it to her mouth, and the smoke drifted away and disappeared above her head with a sigh in her throat.

Laicai finished the meal in the dog bowl.He looked at Li Fei with unsatisfied interest, and licked the oily shine on his nose.Wanting to lick Li Fei's nose again, Li Fei grabbed its dog's mouth and said, "I hate it."

Early the next morning, Li Fei handed over the money to Zhou Jieli and hurried to the hospital.

Li Fei pushed open the door of the ward, and Lin Yueshan had already woken up, standing barefoot in front of the window, her whole body was pitifully haggard.

"Go to bed and lie down, you'll catch cold easily like this."

Lin Yueshan turned her head: "I thought you threw me in the hospital and ignored me."

Li Fei twitched in embarrassment, it really seemed like she could do it.

Li Fei: "When did you wake up?"

"Three o'clock, and then I have been waiting for you."

After hearing this, Li Fei felt a little guilty for no reason. She should wait for her to wake up or leave a note or something.

"You may have to stay in the hospital for a few days. I'll go home and get some things, and arrange the money by the way."

"..."

Li Fei put the pair of slippers by Lin Yueshan's feet, looked at the floor and said to her, "That... I'm sorry that day, I shouldn't lose my temper with you, it was a fact... I was too hypocritical."

Lin Yueshan smiled wryly, "Is it because I'm sick, so you accommodate me?"

Li Fei: "No"

"I already know about adenomyosis. Li Fei, which treatment method do you want me to use?" Lin Yueshan approached Li Fei, and the two were very close.

Li Fei stretched her breath, tried to calm her heartbeat, and told her several treatment options that Dr. Qi had mentioned.Then he generously expressed his thoughts: ""

"But what if I told you that even if I didn't have this disease, I wouldn't have children in the future?" Lin Yueshan interrupted her, "Do you think I will suffer for the rest of my life in vain?"

Li didn't understand, what does it mean that even if there is no illness, there will be no children in the future?

Lin Yueshan: "Didn't understand?"

"Nowadays, medicine is very advanced, and even some cancers can be cured." Li Fei thought that Lin Yueshan had other diseases that would affect her. "Not here, we can"

Sure enough, it didn't make sense, Lin Yueshan was a little tired.

"You close your eyes."

Li Fei: "?"

Lin Yueshan covered Li Fei's eyes with her hand, wrapped her other hand around Li Fei's waist, and kissed Li Fei slightly on tiptoe.