childhood sweethearts on chrysanthemum

Chapter 8

Ji Jingyan didn't say anything further, he knew that the last thing Su Ran needed now was his persuasion, he wanted to wait for Su Ran to calm down before persuading him, then he should be able to understand.

After Ji Jingyan fell asleep, Su Ran called home, and after careful consideration, she still told everything.Ji Jingyan's parents wanted to come to the hospital to take care of Ji Jingyan, so he declined to go back, saying that Ji Jingyan was taking care of him, so don't worry.

Ji Jingyan's parents were always at ease with Su Ran's affairs, so they didn't insist too much.

After doing all this, Su Ran put down the phone and turned to look at Ji Jingyan who was sleeping soundly. His eyes accidentally glanced at Ji Jingyan's cell phone which was placed beside the bed. After hesitating for a while, he still picked up the cell phone.

The Ji Jingyan in the video is completely unfamiliar to Su Ran, he always thought that Ji Jingyan was a well-behaved rabbit, even if he was angry, he was only an angry rabbit.No matter what, he never imagined that the rabbit would turn into a wolf when he was pushed so hard.

Su Ran didn't know how to describe her mood after watching the video, she was surprised, distressed, and questioned from the bottom of her heart.

Su Ran never doubted that she was Ji Jingyan's best friend for so many years.Thinking back carefully now, even though they have been good brothers for more than ten years, even though they get tired of being together almost every day, it seems that I have never really understood Ji Jingyan.I don't know what he really likes, I don't know what he really hates, the only thing I know is that he doesn't like ginger.His understanding of him is not as good as that of Shen Tang who has only known him for three years, or even that of Gu Anyuan who only met this year...

Su Ran looked at Ji Jingyan on the bed, both familiar and unfamiliar.

Since when did you gradually start hiding things from me...

After Su Ran handed over the video to the school, the impact of the incident was too bad because students from other schools were gathered to beat up the students of this school.In addition, it was Li Xuan who made the first move, so the school gave him a major demerit and persuaded him to leave. He was not allowed to return to school until the college entrance examination was over.

From the moment Li Xuan decided to hit Ji Jingyan, he knew that he would pay the price for what he did, whether it was from the school or from Su Ran.But even then, he never regretted what he did.

Everyone has the right to be self-willed once in their youth, just like he chose to teach Ji Jingyan a lesson, and Su Ran chose to like Ji Jingyan.

Fanwai (Li Xuan)

He was seven years old that year, and he was very happy when it was time to go to elementary school, because in this way, he could make a lot of new friends.Li Xuan, whose parents divorced since he was a child, was ridiculed by the children around him when he grew up.No matter where he goes, there are discussions, disgust, sympathy, and pity around him, but the only thing he doesn't have is equal treatment.

He thought that this phenomenon would improve when he went to school, but no matter how hard he tried, he was still the one who was bullied and sympathized with, as if his parents abandoned him could be the reason for everyone to bully him.

Li Xuan, who went to primary school, was still the weakest one in the class. At that time, he was very envious of a boy in the same class.He wasn't very good at fighting, and his family was just an ordinary family, but he just had the ability to convince the other boys in the class.Later, he found out that his name was Su Ran from chatting with other people, and later he found out that Su Ran was always very kind to a little boy beside him, and that little boy was called Ji Jingyan.

At the beginning, the three of them had no special intersection, and their lives were still neither salty nor dull.

A few senior students found out about Li Xuan's family situation from nowhere, and blocked Li Xuan in a small alley after school to ask him for pocket money, which is basically a necessary homework every day.Li Xuan didn't dare to resist, because he knew that resisting would only lead to more bullying.So he skipped breakfast every morning, saving the breakfast money his grandma gave him, and saving it for work after school in the evening.

But things often don't go as smoothly as expected. In this school, it's not just the few people who bully Li Xuan who ask for money every day. Later, more and more people ask Li Xuan for pocket money, grandma The breakfast money given was not enough, he didn’t dare to ask grandma for money, and he didn’t dare to tell the teacher, those people would teach him a lesson if he didn’t have money, and being beaten after school became commonplace in those days, so every day after school became what he feared the most time.

It was another dusk, and Li Xuan was stuck in a dark corner, resignedly enduring the punches and kicks on his body, hoping in his heart that such days would end soon.At this time, amidst the insults, an abrupt voice sounded: "What are you doing? Why do you bully people like this!"

Li Xuan raised his head, and he could barely see that the speaker was wearing white short-sleeved sleeves and his school uniform. Even though his eyes were so swollen that he couldn't see the person's face clearly, he could still be sure that the speaker was Su Ran. .

After that, things didn't change much. After all, it is very difficult for a first-grade child to deal with several senior children.But to Li Xuan's surprise, no matter how the senior children beat Su Ran, Su Ran always stood stubbornly in front of him, even though he was not stable at all, he never fell down.

At that time, Li Xuan looked at the figure standing in front of him. Although he was thin and was still being bullied, in Li Xuan's eyes at that time, Su Ran seemed to be his hero in his heart.

When Ji Jingyan arrived at the scene with the teacher, a senior student was about to grab Su Ran's arm.With a backhand grab, Su Ran clasped the man's hand behind her back, then kicked him hard on the butt, and cursed: "Fuck you, see if we are easy to bully! "

From that day on, Li Xuan wanted to be good friends with Su Ran, but no matter how hard he tried, in Su Ran's eyes, he was not one-tenth as good as Ji Jingyan.Li Xuan is very open-minded. He thinks that the reason why Su Ran and Ji Jingyan get close is probably because their families are close, and the parents of both parties are good friends.But that's right, he firmly believed that as long as he worked hard to treat Su Ran well, Su Ran would always find him, and one day he would replace Ji Jingyan's position in Su Ran's heart.

So he held this belief and followed Su Ran's footsteps to the junior high school where Su Ran was studying.Gradually growing up, his thoughts became much more delicate, and he found that Ji Jingyan was almost irreplaceable in Su Ran's heart.Li Xuan couldn't understand what Ji Jingyan was capable of, why he could eat Su Ran to death.Li Xuan, who was in the period of rebellion, began to find fault with Ji Jingyan non-stop every day, so as to win Su Ran's attention.

Although it was far from the original intention, at least Su Ran noticed him, which was enough to make Li Xuan very happy.

Children from single-parent families are very delicate, and Li Xuan is no exception.From the third year of junior high school, Li Xuan found that Su Ran seemed to treat Ji Jingyan not so well, he was more like a lover than a friend.At that time, he was only skeptical, not sure.

Until following in the footsteps of the two to high school, Su Ran's affection for Ji Jingyan seemed to deepen a bit.The two would get tired of being together no matter in class or after class, and sometimes Su Ran would stare at Ji Jingyan for a long time without moving his eyes.No matter how angry Su Ran is, he will never get angry at Ji Jingyan.Regarding other people's approach to Ji Jingyan, Su Ran, no matter male or female, will be very repulsive. After a long time, Li Xuan gradually discovered that Su Ran seemed to have unusual feelings for Ji Jingyan since he didn't know when. The friendship between them is more like caring for a lover.

Li Xuan did not discriminate against Su Ran's hidden emotions, nor did he feel that Su Ran was a different kind, but he just couldn't support Su Ran from the bottom of his heart, and a large part of the reason was because of Ji Jingyan.He didn't know what Ji Jingyan was capable of, why he could win Su Ran's favor, and why he could accept Su Ran's love with peace of mind.

In the following days, Li Xuan tried his best to ridicule Ji Jingyan, and Li Xuan would not give up any opportunity that could stimulate him. Seeing Ji Jingyan's livid face, he felt a perverted pleasure in his heart .Even if Su Ran hated him even more because of this, he didn't care anymore, because after he knew Su Ran's feelings, he no longer expected to replace Ji Jingyan.

But gradually, his heart seemed to have changed. Even if he sarcastically sarcastically Ji Jingyan again, it was still like a big stone was pressing him down, making him breathless.He couldn't figure out why he became like this, why he became arrogant and unreasonable from childhood cowardice, was it just because of Su Ran?

It wasn't until the third year of high school, after the [-]-day countdown, that he watched a movie by chance, and suddenly realized it.

It turned out that it was because I liked...

It turned out that before he knew it, he gradually changed from admiration to admiration today. He was taken aback by his own thoughts. He never thought that he would one day fall in love with the same sex.He knew in his heart that his love would not bear fruit, and he would even be disgusted by Su Ran.However, his heart is beyond his control, the more he likes Su Ran, the more he hates Ji Jingyan, the flame of jealousy burns more and more in his heart, and finally he made a decision that he could never turn back.

He doesn't regret it, even though this decision will lead him to a completely different future, and may even cause him to live at the bottom of society all his life, but in Li Xuan's heart, he still stubbornly believes that it is because he looks so young. Best decision ever made.

Su Ran is so outstanding and dazzling, he shouldn't have unreasonable thoughts about a man, he shouldn't torture himself like this.No one knows better than Li Xuan the torment of falling in love with a boy, the pain of not being able to get what he wants every day, the struggle of living in darkness every day.Su Ran shouldn't be like this. He should find a virtuous and kind girlfriend, and the two of them will give birth to a lovely baby together. This is the life he should have.

Su Ran, I am willing to give up all my possessions to realize that little glass-like dream.

Su Ran, I won't beg for your forgiveness, I just hope you can be happy...

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