Can't fly

Chapter 4 1 straw

It was late at night when Fang Fei returned to his residence from the studio building of Jinshi that day. Fang Fei thought about it and sent a text message to Yang Yuanyi—no WeChat, no number notes, and all the 11-digit numbers were engraved in his heart from memory.

With the advancement of technology, text messages can also be stored for several years, so that Fang Fei found Yang Yuanyi's number and clicked on the sending interface, and caught off guard and saw the last contact between them.

- Teacher Yang, can I go to your room tonight?

-welcome

- i want to drink some wine

-Study badly?

It stopped abruptly here, and then he seemed to have the courage to lift the wine bottle and knock on Yang Yuanyi's door.

It was a late autumn night in Hong City. After the Golden Olive Award Ceremony, Chu Yin held a small party with the main creators of the crew to celebrate Fang Fei's award.Yang Yuanyi also came and was downed two glasses, but he could drink well and went back to the room sober, only to be greeted by Fang Fei who took the drink again.

It's been a while since we saw each other, so Fang Fei came up and refused to leave.He seemed to be helpless, while drinking with Fang Fei, he said that he "learned so badly from whom", Fang Fei took advantage of the alcohol and lay on his lap.

"Whoever advised me to drink just now, I will learn from him."

He raised his head to look at Yang Yuanyi, his eyes sparkling: "Mr. Yang, am I doing well?"

Yang Yuanyi grabbed his hair and combed it back, her fingers were stained with moist fragrance.The gray-blue eyes contained a lot of words that were too late to say. When smiling at him, Fang Fei couldn't help hugging his neck and pressing down.

"...Are you leaving early tomorrow morning?"

The man who kissed his back said a vague "hmm".

Fang Fei struggled and turned his head: "Then I won't go back to my room today?"

Yang Yuanyi held his hands together, pressed to his waist, and cut back into a fragile posture that could be manipulated by others.

"Okay, they're all drunk."

Life in Pingzhou is like a paradise, like a dream, like a fictional movie.

It was indeed a crazy and perfect ending, everything stopped in the most perfect place.

When he woke up the next day, he told Yang Yuanyi about his decision.

He lay on his stomach and said, looking at the man sitting by the bed smoking a cigarette.

Yang Yuanyi didn't expect it at all, and it was rare for Yang Yuanyi to show a look of confusion, but Yang Yuanyi was Yang Yuanyi after all, and after a while, he returned to his calm and gentle look, stroked his hair, and pulled up the light and fluffy quilt to cover Fang Fei's bare shoulders.

"Just make up your mind." Yang Yuanyi said.

And then made that ridiculous but reasonable request to him.

Now that I think of Fang Fei, I want to laugh: he was still too young at that time, so innocent that he was almost stupid. He wrote a self-proclaimed dramatic ending, thinking that Yang Yuanyi would be a little bit reluctant to let it go.

After all, he is the one who has the shallowest knowledge, only a little bit of sweetness, and he can't help but test the other party.

Ignoring the words between the lines, I used to type in a regular manner: "Mr. Yang, I am Fang Fei. I am taking care of you today, so I will go back first, and then you can contact me when you are free."

It was already the evening of the second day when I heard back.

Yang Yuanyi just said one word: OK.

Fang Fei didn't see right away that when Yang Yuanyi's text message was sent, he was being scolded by He Xiaoshi.

"What do you think when you just won the award? You don't accept this one, you don't want that one. Take it easy, Fang Fei! In the past, even now, even the most popular few days were resources picking you, where did you get the capital? To pick resources? Do you think you are Zhao Dali or Xiao Minghui? They are the money owners and their fathers line up to give money, what about you?!"

"..."

"That's Jinshi! You're good, you messed with me in 5 minutes. I said to accompany you, but you didn't agree, it was very good, no one took care of it, and of course they pointed at you to bully you! You can't be a noble Let’s eat, look at Xia Huai, can you let it go? Let me tell you, Xia Huai’s current middle business is this number!"

He Xiaoshi stretched out five fingers, but sat down angrily when he got no response.

The cloth sofa "creaked" a few times, and he glanced at it with disgust, and then saw Fang Fei in a daze as if wandering around the world, and became more and more annoyed: "Did you listen to me?"

"I'm listening." Fang Fei said calmly, "Jinshi arranged for me to be in a group with Yi Yi. What can I do?"

"Don't you have a classmate who is working as a director?" He Xiaoshi retorted, "I don't know how to get close to him and say a few more nice words? Appreciate you?"

Fang Fei had nothing to say, so he pretended not to hear, and continued to let go.

When he signed He Xiaoshi back then, it was entirely because Xia Huai signed the contract early that he half coaxed and half tricked him into being with him.This person does have tricks, but Fang Fei doesn't like him, and after breaking up with Xia Huai, he is even more uncooperative, and He Xiaoshi often scolds him angrily.

"Fang Fei!" He Xiaoshi raised his voice, "I warn you, the brokerage contract will end in half a year, but if you don't earn enough, I can ask you to renew the contract!"

The eyes moved, and Fang Fei let out an "oh".

He Xiaoshi: "I still have a variety show on hand, and I plan to let you go. It's not very formal, and you may be eaten tofu by female guests. It's hard work, but the rewards are very good."

"I won't go." Fang Fei categorically refused.

"If you don't go, you have to go!" He Xiaoshi was more determined than him, "The company doesn't support people who live for nothing, and you have to listen to me before the contract ends!"

The corner of Fang Fei's mouth twitched slightly, dissatisfied.

He Xiaoshi played both soft and hard ways, and at this time he talked about the truth with him: "Afei, am I really only doing it for money? You count it, how many times have you started work after eight months this year? Kicked, you are unbalanced, I understand, but let's not talk about planning for ourselves, think about your parents and your family, okay?"

He didn't mention his family, but Fang Fei's face darkened instantly.

He Xiaoshi thought he had been persuaded, and continued: "To be honest, considering your family conditions, think about your parents, put your self-esteem down, at least they can-"

"Please leave!" Fang Fei stood up, his tone more resolute.

He Xiaoshi paused for a moment, and all the hard work he had put on froze. His brows and eyes huddled together, and he said "Okay" and "Okay", and walked out angrily. After saying a word, he slammed the door hard.

"Uninteresting stuff!"

Staring at the door, Fang Fei took a while to calm down.

He is not a soft persimmon to be manipulated by others, but he fell into He Xiaoshi's hands, and he was always choked to death every time. Intimidation and temptation - the temptation was still useful in the past few years, but recently Fang Fei has been broken, and even threats are not always effective .

He Xiaoshi is not a vegetarian, he said so much, there is always something that pokes Fang Fei's heart.

family.

The current entertainment industry is not the same as it was 30 or [-] years ago, and more and more capital is coming to an end.It is impossible to be glamorous forever after making money every day has become a reality visible to the naked eye.The ones who suddenly become popular are either the rich second generation with mines and companies at home, or they are willing to go out and have connections with financial owners behind them.

Even these two cannot last long, and Fang Fei is even more incompatible.

He Xiaoshi scolded him for his hypocrisy. Other people's parents are CEOs and CFOs, but they have to make fun of the capital bosses. Fang Fei's father is a fruit stall owner, so he doesn't know what to be proud of.

It is still a fruit stand in a small county town on the [-]th line.

The family situation was good in the early years, but as the parents got older, the father became sick from overwork and couldn't engage in physical labor, and the business gradually declined.Even the [-]th line earns quite a lot in the entertainment industry. Fang Fei basically sends back the money he earns since entering the industry to subsidize his family, and he can still maintain a not-so-bad life.

Until the beginning of this year, my grandma's diabetes worsened. She kept taking medicine and doing dialysis, which consumed a lot of her savings. Coupled with the sharp drop in income, the family gradually became unable to support her.My mother did not say clearly, but when she called him occasionally, she earnestly advised him to be "25", "don't be too self-willed", and "it's better to find a solid job".

The money gap was obvious, and Fang Fei's pressure suddenly became much heavier. He Xiaoshi was still pinching him, and it was almost impossible to retreat and leave Pingjing alone.

The three words "Yang Yuanyi" surfaced untimely and were immediately denied by Fang Fei.

He knows that Yang Yuanyi treats his lover rather than indiscriminately, but he likes the new and dislikes the old, and never turns back.What the backstage lounge of the show said to him may not be a real hint.

But if there is anyone between heaven and earth who can make Fang Fei willing, except Yang Yuanyi, there is no one else.

It is not entirely true that he loves Yang Yuanyi, it seems that he is more like using the other party to satisfy himself.

Fang Fei has a perverted obedience to Yang Yuanyi, he likes to listen to him speak casually, be ordered gently by him, and do all shameful actions in front of him-all these make Fang Fei satisfied.To this day, he spent five years apart thinking about it, but he still didn't realize whether it was a disease.

Yang Yuanyi never forced him to do anything against his will, it was him.

After he met Yang Yuanyi, he couldn't go back.

Seeing that less than 10 minutes had passed since Yang Yuanyi's reply, Fang Fei had no choice but to try to write a reply to Yang Yuanyi, guessing whether Yang Yuanyi would understand the hint.

"Mr. Yang, were you joking yesterday when you said you wanted me to film a movie?"

Sure enough, Yang Yuanyi was still holding the phone, and quickly gave him the answer.

-The investment is almost in place, what do you think?

- You can tell me the audition time at your convenience.

- you come, no audition required.

When this sentence was transmitted to the mobile phone, Fang Fei's heart, which was only considered to be lit, suddenly caught fire, and the desolation burned all over the sky.His throat moved slightly, and he said that everything has a price.

- when can i see you then

Yang Yuanyi didn't reply.

It seems that it means not wanting, Fang Fei understood, and was depressed for a while.

After sitting on the sofa for a while, my thoughts still couldn't calm down, so I got up and pulled out a bound A4 paper from the depths of the bookshelf.The edge of the curl is yellowed, because the paper is crumpled after flipping through it many times, and a rough page is full of traces of ink pens of various colors.

Logical stress management, important lines are framed, and arrows are used for emotional ups and downs...

"Leave me, he is not love, but the life you like."

"So I traded myself, for money, for the life you want, and now you think I'm shameless?"

"It's been changed too many times, why do you think I will still love you and be so devoted to you?"

……

Four years ago, "Absurd Stories" directed by Chu Yin won five Golden Olive Awards including Best Actor.He hesitated at the awards ceremony, and he couldn't even understand the words of thanking Yang Yuanyi.

That night, Fang Fei read the old scripts all night, and repeatedly recalled the bits and pieces at that time.

It wasn't until dawn that he finally felt sleepy.

Scratching his face, Fang Fei fell onto the bed. Fang Fei was unconscious. He picked up his phone to check the time, but was suddenly awakened by an incoming call.

"Are you asleep?" Yang Yuanyi asked over there.

"No." Fang Fei sat up straight, looking out the window at a deep blue sky.

"I didn't see your news until now. If you wish..." Yang Yuanyi seemed to be drinking water, and his voice wrapped around him moistly, "I'm at Pingjing Hotel."

Fang Fei didn't answer immediately, but grabbed the pillow tightly.

Yang Yuanyi looked at the current time and realized that he was a bit too much, and added annoyedly: "Forget it, this point is inconsistent, my brain is not enough, I thought it was too early. Sorry, I..."

"I can go there!" Fang Fei said, like an impatient promise, "Come now, you wait for me."

After hanging up the phone, Fang Fei felt as if a spark shot down his back, and he looked at the clock beside the bed in disbelief.Four twenty-seven.

He thought: I must be crazy.