sinovels Chapter 19 Mommy
Chapter 19 Mommy
19.
On the morning of New Year's Eve, Yu Changan was awakened by the vibration of his mobile phone.Lu Ming sent him a photo. In the photo, couplets had been posted in front of the house, and small lanterns had been hung on the low fence outside the yard.Lu Ming said that he and Qingqing dressed up the house in the morning and went to the supermarket to buy some New Year's goods in the afternoon.
Lu Ming said again, Mr. Yu, what are you eating?May I bring you some fish soup tonight?
Yu Changan said that he was used to eating dumplings, and there was no need for Lu Ming to send fish soup.
He didn't tell Lu Ming that he had to get himself drunk every New Year's Eve after Yan Ruyu left.He will cook a plate of dumplings for himself, open the Spring Festival Gala, and drink while eating dumplings.In the first two years, I would cry, crying until my mind went blank.Later, I gradually stopped crying, but my mind was still blank.He still couldn't give up such self-torture, as if he had become addicted.Yu Changan knew that he must be sick, but he just felt that the greater the pain caused by self-torture, the closer he was to his mother.
He sat down at the desk again after breakfast.It's time to write Qiansheng and Xiaoyang's last sex.
Qiansheng's parents returned home from a business trip, and they didn't notice the changes in the two children at home in the past few days.During the meal, Qian Sheng's hand quietly stroked the lamb's thigh under the table, the hanging tablecloth well concealed Qian Sheng's movements.His hands lingered on the lamb's smooth skin, then burrowed into the lamb's panties, touching the wet labia.Qian Sheng withdrew his hand in satisfaction.
After their parents fell asleep, they made love in Qiansheng's room. Qiansheng's hard penis gave the lamb supreme pleasure. The passage leading to happiness, Qiansheng kissed and licked it, the lamb trembled tremblingly, a lot of water flowed out from it, Qiansheng inserted his genitals to the end, and the lamb held it contentedly.
Such crazy joy finally ushered in the end of the day.Qiansheng's father took the train home with Xiao Yang, and his father went back to visit grandpa by the way.The home without the lamb made Qiansheng feel depressed, his exuberant sexual desire had nowhere to vent, and his temper became weird again.He hid in the room and played games, getting erections while playing games.
Two weeks later, Qiansheng received a call from a stranger. The lively female voice on the phone made him so excited that he almost cried.The lamb said, Qiansheng, do you miss me?
They told each other how much they missed on the phone, and then agreed to talk every night.So Qiansheng learned to have sex with Lamb on the phone - he just needs to speak out his fantasy, and then masturbate listening to Lamb's voice.
However, two months later, Lamb's secret phone calls every night were discovered.Xiaoyang's parents, Qiansheng's young third grandpa and third grandma, confiscated all of Xiaoyang's communication tools, reduced her pocket money, and sent her to a boarding school.Lamb never told them who the mysterious boy was.From then on, Qiansheng lost the news of the lamb.
Writing here is almost over.Qian Sheng's ending has been decided, and Yu Changan's heart is at peace. He is not in a hurry to finish writing the book on this day, and he will finish the last part in the second day of junior high school.Yu Chang'an arranged the next plan in an orderly manner, just like a person who is about to kill himself would do, except that the person he wants to kill is not called "Yu Chang'an".
It was already dark when he turned on the computer, and the party was about to start, so he went into the kitchen and started cooking dumplings.
When I turned on the phone, I received a few messages from Luming. Luming sent me a dinner with Qingqing. The two of them ate four dishes, and the portions of each dish were small.Lu Ming said that Qingqing made the sweet and sour pork ribs and braised sea bass, and he made the fried cabbage and scrambled eggs with tomatoes.Yu Changan zoomed in on the picture to look at Lu Ming's work carefully, and it looked pretty good.Yu Changan also took a photo of the cooked dumplings and sent it to Lu Ming, saying, my dinner is very simple, I will try your cooking when I go back.
He was always calm, even though he had been intimate with Luming yesterday, he still kept a distance from Luming.So he didn't know that Lu Ming really wanted to see him.
Yu Changan put the beer and dumplings on the coffee table and sat on the floor.The party has already begun, and the host is introducing the first program.Yu Changan picked up a dumpling and said to Yan Ruyu's photo on the coffee table, "Mom, Happy New Year."
He didn't make it past zero sober.Yu Changan passed out drunk on the ground around eleven o'clock, so he didn't see the blessing message Lu Ming sent him, and Lu Ming called him several times but he didn't receive it.He didn't know that when Lu Ming rushed over to open the door and saw him lying on the ground, he was so frightened that his whole body shivered.
When Yu Changan woke up from a severe headache the next day, he was already on the bed, wearing a clean T-shirt.He was in a daze for a moment, not knowing where he was, and seemed to have lost several hours of memory.
Sounds and scents came from the kitchen, and Yu Changan's subconscious told him that Lu Ming was here, so he tried to call "Lu Ming", but the voice was too hoarse, and Lu Ming couldn't hear it.He dragged his heavy body out of bed and went to the bathroom first.He knew that after a hangover, he could hardly see or smell, how could he go to see Lu Ming like this.
However, Yu Chang'an saw a clean and tidy self in the mirror. Apart from being mentally haggard, everything was fine.After washing up, he walked out of the bathroom, and saw Lu Ming coming out of the kitchen with a small pot.
"Mr. Yu," Lu Ming said, "are you alright?"
Yu Changan said, "Fortunately, you came early."
Lu Ming poured the oatmeal from the pot into two small bowls, responded vaguely, and didn't tell Yu Changan that he actually came last night, and Yu Changan slept in his arms all night.
There are only quick-frozen foods in the refrigerator, and Lu Ming can't make any tricks. A plate of dumplings, two finger cakes and two boiled eggs is already considered rich.
After breakfast, Yu Changan said, "Come with me to the flower market by the river."
Lu Ming asked: "Is the flower market still open on the first day of the new year?"
Yu Changan nodded: "It's open."
There are a few sporadic shops in the flower market that are still open, and most of the shops are chrysanthemums.Yu Changan told Lu Ming that everyone in this city has the custom of going to the grave on the first day of the new year, so there are always a few flower shops open.Yu Changan said: "The chrysanthemums in the cemetery are ridiculously expensive, and there are not many of them. I still like to buy them here first."
"Are we going to see Teacher Yu?" Lu Ming asked.
Yu Changan was taken aback for a moment, but he had completely forgotten about his father.He didn't want to go to see Yu Beilian, but his conscience always felt bad, so he nodded: "Well, go and see later."
He bought a bouquet of yellow and white chrysanthemums, and went to the cemetery instead.
Yu Beilian's tomb is in the most luxurious area of the cemetery. Before Yu Chang'an arrived, someone had already placed some flowers in front of the tomb. It seemed that Yu Beilian must be remembered after his death.Yu Changan bent down to put down the yellow chrysanthemum, and said to Yu Beilian expressionlessly and numbly that I came to see you.And Lu Ming bowed to Yu Beilian, and Lu Ming said, "Teacher Yu, I hope you are all well in heaven."
Yu Changan burned some coins and paper-made brushes for Yu Beilian, and said, "I can only buy brushes, so you can change to ink painting over there."
The whole cemetery seemed to be filled with the sound of depressing grief and crying, only Yu Changan and Lu Ming had normal expressions, and the whole process didn't even take half an hour.
On the way home, Lu Ming saw the white chrysanthemums in the back seat of the car and said, "Mr. Yu, we just forgot this bouquet of white chrysanthemums."
Yu Changan said, "That's for Mom."
"Mom's death day is in the third day of junior high school."
Yu Changan did not continue this topic.
The two went to a nearby big supermarket to buy some food. Yu Changan picked up two more boxes of condoms at the checkout. Lu Ming followed behind him, blushing, not daring to look at the two small boxes.
They went home and did a simple cleaning. The floors and tables were wiped clean, and all the sheets and quilts were thrown into the washing machine for a good wash. Lu Ming and Yu Changan hung the things on the balcony together. Lu Ming said: "Tomorrow is On a sunny day, it should be able to dry for a day, so don't forget to collect it."
Yu Chang'an smiled: "How could I forget? In your eyes, am I an imbecile in life?"
Lu Ming quickly shook his head: "That's not what I meant."
Yu Changan still smiled: "I'm kidding you. I still know how to do housework, but I don't do it delicately. My mother used to say that."
He mentioned Yan Ruyu again.Lu Ming looked at Yu Changan, anticipating what he would say next.
Yu Changan didn't go any further.He went back to his study, still asking Lu Ming to sit on his bed.Yu Changan told Lu Ming that the novel will be finished in the second day of junior high school, that is, it will be finished tomorrow. "I'm going to see my mother in the third day of junior high school," he said after a pause, "Mom left on the third day of junior high school, and she had already left when I saw her."
At that time, Yu Chang'an was already a senior in college, but his life was muddled.My father was out and about, and my mother was depressed all day long.Yu Changan was eager to escape from such a repressive family, even if the university was in the same city, he would not go home.When Yan Ruyu was a freshman and sophomore, she often called him to ask when she would come back to see her mother. Yu Changan always said that you were accompanied by Aunt Qi?Yan Ruyu said how Aunt Qi could be like you.Every time at this time, Yu Chang'an would make many excuses, such as busy study, busy clubs, classmates' endless birthdays and parties, all of which seemed to be more important than his mother.
After junior year, Yan Ruyu stopped urging him, and he only came home during the year for Chinese New Year and his mother's birthday.
Before Yan Ruyu passed away, he asked him why he didn't come back because it was almost New Year's Eve. He said that he would not go back this year, because he was too busy to graduate soon.Yan Ruyu said disappointedly: "Okay then, you can do your work. This year, my mother celebrates the New Year alone. Your aunt Qi has also returned to her hometown. I don't know where my father is."
However, Yu Changan actually played games for a week in the dormitory with his roommate who also did not go home.At 02:30 in the morning on the fourth day of the fourth day, I received a call from Aunt Qi. Aunt Qi said, "Chang'an, come to the People's Hospital to see your mother for the last time."
Yu Chang'an hadn't woken up from his sleep yet, so he couldn't straighten out the connection between the People's Hospital and the last side.Two seconds later, he suddenly understood, put on his clothes and ran outside. His roommate was awakened by him and scolded him for going crazy in the middle of the night.I wish I was crazy, he thought.
When Yan Ruyu rushed to the hospital, she had already been covered with a white cloth.Yu Changan lifted a corner of the white cloth to see Yan Ruyu's pale face, then turned to look at Aunt Qi who was streaming down tears, and murmured, "Mom..."
Mom is gone.Never heard him call her mom again.
Aunt Qi told him that she came back from her hometown early in the evening of the third day of junior high school and brought some homemade sausages for Teacher Yan.When he entered the door, he found Teacher Yan sleeping.She wondered why Teacher Yan, who was always a light sleeper, was not woken up by her movement. She didn't know something serious happened until she approached the bed and saw several empty bottles of sleeping pills on the bedside table.
After that, Yu Changan began to use sleep to escape reality.When he fell asleep, he would cry uncontrollably. He saw Yan Ruyu again and again in his dreams, and he said, Mom, when are you going home?Yan Ruyu just smiled and didn't speak.He said, Mom, I miss you very much.Yan Ruyu opened her arms and hugged him.He hugged Yan Ruyu very tightly.Sometimes he would be hysterical to Yan Ruyu, he asked her why she was so cruel, and he said I hate you so much.Yan Ruyu in the dream is always gentle and tolerant, she is neither angry nor angry, she said, but mother is too tired.
The long sleep made Yu Chang'an unable to distinguish between reality and dream, and he was always in a daze when he woke up, his consciousness seemed to be still in the dream, in the place where his mother was.
That time was the darkest time in Yu Changan's life.He thought that he would be immersed in this kind of grief forever, but as time went by, he accepted the fact that Yan Ruyu had left.
After Lu Ming finished listening, he wiped away the teardrops from the corners of his eyes with the back of his hand.Yu Changan laughed at him: "Why are you still crying?"
Lu Ming cried even harder, his tears falling down one by one like beads.He got up and hugged Yu Changan, letting Yu Changan's head rest on his chest.He stroked Yu Changan's hair without saying a word.His heart ached because of Yan Ruyu and Yu Changan, and now he knew that all of Mr. Yu's depression was due to this wound that would never heal.
Yu Changan put his arms around Lu Ming's waist, closed his eyes lightly, tears flowed out, and were quickly absorbed by Lu Ming's clothes.Yu Changan hugged Lu Ming tightly.
Luming stayed that night.
They huddled together on the small bed in the study, still the same as last night.Yu Changan whispered in Lu Ming's ear that actually he remembered that Lu Ming had come last night. "Why don't you tell me?"
Lu Ming said, "I'm afraid you're not happy."
Yu Changan kissed Lu Ming's forehead: "Leaving you the key at the door is to welcome you. How could I be unhappy. Have you put away the key?"
"It's done."
Yu Changan said that he will write the ending in retreat tomorrow, and he hopes to stay alone for a day, please understand Lu Ming.Lu Ming said, "Okay."
Yu Changan said again: "I'm going to see my mother in the third day of junior high school, and I'll be home on the fourth day of junior high school. You are waiting for me at home."
Lu Ming nodded: "Okay."