born white

Chapter 35

Shen Bai's hand holding the phone trembled slightly, likes, comments and reposts all the way.

"Me too, Super Invincible Thunderbolt likes it."

But my liking was earlier than you. Before you were accepted by the public, I admired you secretly in a certain corner.

——Brothers, I am out of order.

Shen Bai sent a hundred red envelopes in the dormitory group, and it was snatched up within 5 seconds.

Li Fei & Zhang Teng: Congratulations.

Wang Zhe: Congratulations.

Shen Bai: Don't you all ask who it is?

Wang Zhe: Yes, but not necessary.Li Si just told us the latest news about you and your male god, and by the way, he wrapped us a big red envelope.

Shen Bai was deeply moved after watching it, and felt that Li Si was worthy of being his childhood friend. This time is really interesting, and he can share double joy for his brothers at critical moments.

Zhang Teng: Well, yes.At the beginning, a few of us formed a small group to bet on whether you and your male god can succeed.50 yuan per person.Li Sifei said, "Lick the dog until nothing is left", and I don't agree with you two.

Li Fei: Yes, in order to prove that you are not a dog, we will bet on both of you.On behalf of the whole dormitory, thank you, Dabai.I invite you to dinner at the beginning of school.

Shen Bai: ...So you only bet on it to prove that I am not a dog? ? ?I'll fuck you!

Shen Bai changed into pajamas, lay on the bed and pulled the blanket over his navel, staring at the ceiling tossing and turning, unable to fall asleep.

The first time he knew Qi Tian was in the second semester of his third year of high school. At that time, he was under a lot of study pressure, and coupled with the fact that his brother-in-law, who was originally a good man, suddenly had an accident in his relationship, Shenba suddenly didn't know how to face his own sexuality.He was under a lot of pressure. He often couldn't sleep all night. He went to class every day with black eyes. This kind of concern, but Shen Bai didn't dare and didn't want to tell anyone.

Shen Bai knew that this kind of thing needs to be thought through thoroughly by himself, if he keeps avoiding and not letting the sun shine in, he may soon be engulfed by darkness.

Until one day, he was lying on his desk to sort out the wrong notes, and turned on Netease Music to calm himself down through soothing music, but accidentally switched to a stress-relieving radio station in the form of an interview.A man was invited to the show that day, and the theme was 'how to deal with contemporary sexuality and yourself correctly'.

Shen Bai was not interested in these things that were performed according to the script. He wanted to jump over, but the first sentence that the man said was "I doubt this question because I came here to set it up for me, because I myself It's emmm, the opposite sexuality from most people."

The man's voice was clear and bright, full of magnetism, like spring rain, dancing briskly and kissing the pale skin in an instant.This man's voice is really nice, Shen Bai thought to himself, I want to hear him make up stories.

He stopped writing and leaned back, nestled in the chair and closed his eyes to listen to the man's story.

"Then, when you knew your sexual orientation, did you have any different psychological changes? Did you feel that you were different from others?" The host's voice was very sweet, but the last sentence made Shen Bai feel a little disgusted.

"Let me make a digression first. Please don't call me 'you'. I'm not a big shot, and I'm about the same age as you. I don't feel comfortable addressing me respectfully." Shen Bai heard the host smile awkwardly. Then he said: "When I knew my sexual orientation, I didn't feel that I was abnormal. On the contrary, I was quite novel. Because at that time, there were no people like me around, and it might be that even people who were close to me were facing When this happens, I will deliberately conceal it, anyway, I didn’t notice the difference at the time.”

The man snorted softly: "On the contrary, I thought it was a treasure, just like our country's national treasure. At that time, I wondered if the country would put me in a cage or bring me into a laboratory, and give me delicious food. Drink it to study me."

Shen Bai chuckled, he felt that this person must have been kicked in the head by a donkey when he was a child.

"After I went to university, I realized that there were many people like me. To be honest, I was quite disappointed when I learned everything. But from the beginning to the end, I didn't feel that I had anything to do with others. The source of all emotions belonged to one On the word 'love', it is divided into categories by 'love', and love is one of them. Love is divided into same-sex love and opposite-sex love. But looking up, their source is still 'love', all for me There is no difference in saying that there is no difference. The opposite sex will quarrel, betray and stay together for a lifetime, and same-sex love will also be the same. Since it is the same, how can we talk about the difference.”

Shen Bai nodded in agreement, he thought what the man inside said made a lot of sense.The little uncle's emotional crisis is because of a betrayer, there is still betrayal between the opposite sex, why should he sneer at the betrayal of the same sex.People always stand on the moral high ground and accuse others, but they use the most humble principles to flaunt their behavior as real dogs.

"Okay, I was enlightened immediately after listening to your answer. I have been dealing with cognitive biases in these two emotions before, and what you said today has benefited me a lot. I need to go back and review it in writing."

"Don't stop, it's serious. There is no need for a written review on this matter, as long as you know it in your heart," the man coughed softly, and said softly, "I will settle today's tuition in private."

"Haha, the young master is really good at joking. Let's ask the next question, do you have any plans for the future?" the host said.

"In terms of planning, this is a question that stops me. People who know me well know it, but of course there are not many people who know me well."

The host answered quickly: "No, no, if we don't know, we won't invite you to be our guest for the interview."

"I'm looking forward to becoming popular through your show. Recently, I have been thinking about whether to quit the circle and find a steady job to live a stable life. However, a singer who was very popular in the circle a few days ago, I temporarily I can’t say who it is, but he contacted me and asked me if I would be interested in forming a group with him, but I haven’t replied yet, but I’m actually quite shy.”

"You can have this, you must think about it!" The host sounded a little excited, "I have heard you sing, and I am attracted by your song. I believe other fans also look forward to your new song Identity and meet everyone."

Shen Bai clearly heard the voice of the host flipping the paper, "The last question is for your fans, are you single at this stage?"

"Whoever asked, tell me. I'd like to see which devil's little fan pokes my sore spots online tonight."

"Haha, the young master is really good at joking. Alright, let's get back to the topic. Could it be that your current relationship status is..."

"That's right, wait for the state to distribute." The man probably said too much tonight, his voice was tired, "I see that there is still a welfare activity in the schedule, right?"

"Yes, yes, how does the young master arrange it?"

"Well. I checked the calendar before I came here, and the college entrance examination is about a month away. Some of my fans are high school students, and I want to give them a song here. I hope June can be a dream Horse, walk quickly to the end of the world."

"They said to be steady and steady, and they said that youth needs to be swayed

Diesel, rice, oil and salt are plain into tea but they say that freedom is priceless

They say that the original intention cannot be changed and that they adapt to the changes of the times

People who bury their heads miss the blue sky and look up but make people lost their eyes

Those slow summer fans squeak, round and round

I thought that after writing those test papers, my dream would be easily realized

But when I grow up, I slowly realize that the rules of the game have to be distinguished by myself

Don't waste time with too many noises lingering in your ears

They say it's from experience, but you have to walk your own way

Don't listen to them say how difficult the road is, just turn a corner

Don't listen to them say that the human relationship is so general and think that you have tasted the cold and the warm

Don't listen to them say how bleak the reality is, just surrender and dare not even dream

They say you have to be good and obedient, and they say good kids have no idea

Do you want a wall full of red flowers with awards or a piece of graffiti

But the program of life is too huge, no one can calculate the standard solution

In the end, if there is no way out, just close your ears

listen to yourself

......"

The man sang "They Said" with a refreshing voice, that song was played on loop countless times in the days before Shen Bai's college entrance examination, and that man's voice was still lingering in Shen Bai's mind.

"Okay, thank you very much, Master Seven, for being our guest on 'One Week One Star'. See you next week, good night."

Shen Bai took a pen and wrote "Seventh Young Master" stroke by stroke on the paper, then drew a circle on it, poked the tip of the pen lightly on it, and suddenly pursed his lips and smiled.

"Thank you."

The dark clouds were blown away by a gust of wind, revealing the moon hanging in the sky.The wind gently brushed the window screen and blew the small wind chime on the desk. This was a gift from Uncle Shen Bai to Shen Bai for entering high school. He hoped that his little nephew could be free and happy in everything.