Berry Muffins

Chapter 29 A fool

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In fact, Tao Lan was also very tangled.

He didn't want to completely draw a line with Lu Yuqing, because he still liked Lu Yuqing very much, he was very happy to hear his voice, and he was also very happy to think of him smiling at himself.He just felt a little embarrassed and ashamed.

When I was rejected to confess, when I felt that I was being passionate, when I realized that I owed Lu Yuqing too much.

He wants to pay off these things because he wants to like Lu Yuqing more equally, instead of staying in the role of being taken care of as a younger brother.

Part-time salary, scholarships, trying to save money.

His roommates ridiculed him for being too frugal. He would never go out with them if he could eat in the cafeteria, and he hardly ate snacks. He was extremely thin.

The last time Lu Yuqing asked him to eat, he quickly fulfilled his promise, but Tao Lan insisted on AA, and the two went to Haidilao, which is relatively simple.

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"Why are you being so polite to me all of a sudden?" Lu Yuqing looked at Tao Lan with some puzzlement, the hot pot was boiling hot and steamy, "Pay me a sum of money all of a sudden, have you ever thought about your own life?" How are you going to do it?"

Tao Lan also looked at him seriously: "Because I want to like you more equally."

"Instead of being the younger brother who has been taken care of by you."

"I don't really want to be your brother..."

Reminds me of Qi Ran.Tao Lan thought silently in his heart.

Lu Yuqing pursed her lips, and her beautifully shaped eyelashes fluttered slightly, but in the end she didn't say anything, and added ingredients to the hot pot in silence.

Compared with the enthusiasm of other tables, the two of them seemed quiet and dull, as if only the waiter brother of Haidilao was enthusiastic.

In fact, this is not a very good place to talk, but Tao Lan is a little eager to know why Lu Yuqing is so resistant to other people's confessions...

Lu Yuqing didn't seem to expect that he would ask such a direct and frank question, and this time he didn't choose to hide it anymore, but told the truth.

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"After Xiaoran passed away, his mother looked through his diary, and he wrote his thoughts on it. If his mother hadn't come to me with the diary, I might not have been able to find out about it." Lu Yuqing When he stated his memories, he was very calm, with an unexpectedly indifferent expression, "Qi Ling didn't know that Aunt Qi came to see me. She didn't know that she hated me either."

Tao Lan slowly opened his eyes, with a hint of surprise in his expression: "Why? Why does she hate you..."

"She thinks it's because I haven't discovered Xiaoran's meaning that Xiaoran's mood worsens later."

Tao Lan opened his mouth, a little speechless.

This is obviously just venting anger for no reason. The disease that Qi contracted cannot be cured based on whether he is in a good mood or not.

"Something happened to me at the time, so I listened to what she said, and always felt that I was the one who killed Xiaoran."

"I also took a break from school for a year to get medical treatment. Later, it was considered stable. Qi Ling's mother was sent abroad by his father for medical treatment, and she was also suffering from depression..." Lu Yuqing paused, then continued, "Qi Ling Ling didn't know about it."

"But I still subconsciously feel that my liking will kill others."

Tao Lan pursed her lips and couldn't speak, no wonder Qi Ling said that Lu Yuqing's personality had changed too much, no wonder... But what did he mean by this sentence, did he mean that he didn't like him, but was just afraid of hurting himself?

Tao Lan suddenly raised his eyes to look at Lu Yuqing, and the unconcealable loneliness in the boy's eyes was clearly seen.

Did I really misunderstand him before?

"No... why do you think so?"

Tao Lan interrupted him eagerly, the loneliness he felt a few days ago turned into distress at this moment.

He always thought that people like Lu Yuqing with a good family and a good personality grew up smoothly from childhood to adulthood. Unlike himself, the inferiority complex and timidity in his bones seemed to be deeply rooted.

"Actually, I'm the coward." Lu Yuqing suddenly smiled, and frowned slightly superiorly, "You are much braver than me."

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Because of what Lu Yuqing said to him, Tao Lan was a little absent-minded during this meal.

After eating, the two walked side by side in the mall, wandering aimlessly.

In fact, the weather today is very nice, it looks like it won’t rain without the sun, Tao Lan pulled Lu Yuqing’s clothes, and suddenly said: “Why don’t we go to the park.”

It was really boring for the two boys to go shopping, so Lu Yuqing naturally agreed to his proposal.

There is a bus stop right outside the door, and it takes two stops to reach the nearby park. Because there are no tickets and the scenery is good, there are many people who come here to climb mountains.

Tao Lan, who hadn't eaten much before, felt hungry after climbing for a while... and began to regret wasting a lot of food just now.

Lu Yuqing didn't even look tired, and Tao Lan secretly looked at his profile.

Sometimes he thinks that Lu Yuqing is too perfect, with a gentle and mature personality, so he doesn't lose his temper, but he is so perfect that he looks like a dummy...

After seeing his fragility now, Tao Lan found sadly that he seemed to like him more.

I am also very strange.Tao Lan complained silently to himself in his heart.

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The mountain in the park is not high, and the road is very flat. There is a tower in two-thirds of the hill, and many tourists choose to stop there to rest.

They also stayed for a while, but soon chose to continue climbing.

As they went to the top of the mountain, there were fewer and fewer people. When Tao Lan finally reached a viewing platform, he was so tired that the two of them found a chair to rest.

In fact, Tao Lan wanted to find a quieter place to talk to Lu Yuqing, but he didn't expect to develop into a serious mountain climbing...

Lu Yuqing also sweated a little, but he didn't blushed, his heart beat, and he didn't pant. He didn't know that his stamina was so good.

Tao Lan pressed his cheek with the back of his hand, trying to calm down.

"Are you okay?" Lu Yuqing patted him on the back, looked at the vending machine not far away, and said, "I'll go buy two bottles of water."

Tao Lan nodded obediently: "Okay..."

He was indeed a little thirsty.

After drinking a bottle of ice water, Tao Lan finally felt better.

Lu Yuqing was also drinking water with his head up, his protruding Adam's apple rolling slightly.

Tao Lan suddenly pulled Lu Yuqing's clothes, and did not speak until the man looked at him.

"Brother Lu." Tao Lan stretched out his hand and nodded to himself again, there was something bright in his beautiful almond-shaped eyes, "You can see that I can climb mountains like this, and my stamina is not bad. Except for a little problem with my ears, everything else is fine. It's okay."

Lu Yuqing blinked in confusion, but still agreed with Tao Lan: "Yes."

Tao Lan pursed her lower lip, and said in a soft voice, "So I won't die because of you...so you don't have to be afraid of that unknown thing."

"I'll always be fine."

The empty water bottle of Tao Lan's mobile phone was deformed by him, making a slight sound.There were some other tourists on the viewing platform, but there were only the two of them in this area, and Tao Lan didn't speak very loudly, and only Lu Yuqing could hear this slightly hypocritical confession.

Lu Yuqing cheated her face and looked at him. Her thin lips were light pink, which seemed to be a healthy color after exercise.

Very kind.

Tao Lan raised his face, because of the height difference, he needed to look up at Lu Yuqing, so he could clearly see the changes in his eyes.

"So, don't push me away, okay?"

"Actually, you also like me a little bit..."

As soon as he finished speaking, he suddenly leaned forward and gently placed a kiss on Lu Yuqing's lips, as light as a butterfly kissing his lips.

A taste of the first kiss.

But it took courage to give it out.

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Tao Lan felt that the timing of his confession was inappropriate every time, but he couldn't help it.

He grabbed Lu Yuqing's hand, which was cold, but gave himself a little courage.

The boy's eyes were full of hope and looked at the big boy in front of him, innocent and fragile, which made it impossible to refuse.

"I don't have any experience in this area." Lu Yuqing was silent for a while, and then slowly opened his mouth. There was a slight hesitation in Taohua's eyes, "I'm afraid that I will treat you badly, and I'm even more afraid that you will be disappointed with me."

"Me neither..." Tao Lan interrupted him in a low voice, "It's only fair. I don't know what will happen to me. Many people will become a nuisance when they are in love. In fact, I am also afraid of changing. become a bad person..."

"But compared to this, I am more afraid of regret."

Lu Yuqing was taken aback when he heard the words, and his eyes sank slightly, then he withdrew his hand, slowly grabbed Tao Lan's hand, and looked at Tao Lan with gentle eyes: "Okay."

Tao Lan was also stunned, his expression gradually became a little surprised and a little shy, and he stuttered a little when he spoke: "Then, from now on, he will be my boyfriend."

Seeing him like this, Lu Yuqing thought he was cute, and there was a smile on the end of his eyes: "Yeah."

Tao Lan just smiled stupidly like this, and Lu Yuqing also kept holding his hand in a daze. The two of them maintained such a silly posture for a while before realizing that something was wrong.

Tao Lan scratched her hair, blushing and defending: "I seem to be stupid again."

Lu Yuqing also smiled faintly: "It's okay, I'm pretty stupid too."

The way down the mountain seemed extremely relaxed, not only the physical feeling, Tao Lan's originally gloomy mood was also swept away.

Although he and Lu Yuqing confirmed their intentions, both of them looked like clumsy fools, but it was also an unexpected negative.