belated antidote

Chapter 9 Nepeta

Regarding the rumored vision of Professor Zhong's youngest son gradually "discovering this person", almost everyone thought it was another tragedy of a genius who "disappeared from everyone".

Professor Zhong seems indifferent, but in fact he accepts all flattery.As a father, his two children are his family education transcripts. In any case, he cannot accept the existence of a huge difference.

Zhong Xingzheng's life has been almost smooth, and he can get everything he wants with a flick of his wrist.If Zhong Zhiting is the perfect ship he built, always able to gallop at a speed beyond everything according to every route he set, Zhong Huaiyuan is like the biggest whirlpool in his life, usually quiet and obedient The earth is hidden under the sea surface, and it suddenly set off a stormy sea.

No matter how good Zhong Xingzheng's medical skills are, he can't use a scalpel to correct this "teratosis" that appeared in his life.Perhaps, Zhong Huaiyuan's accidental birth is an ominous omen that indicates the end of the country, and he himself is a problem that Zhong Xingzheng can't solve with all his means.

Being in a medical family, Zhong Huaiyuan made such an episode of "lowering his own social status", in the eyes of outsiders, it probably seemed a bit openly disobedient to his elders.However, the expected dispute did not happen, and Professor Zhong resolved the situation calmly.

"Whether it is the National Medical University or Renji, each role is given ample opportunities to exercise." Professor Zhong put on a hypocritical smile to set up a step for Zhong Huaiyuan, acting like an enlightened and loving father who respects his children's choices, "People Everyone has their own aspirations, so don’t take each other lightly.”

Zhong Huaiyuan seemed to have heard a big joke, and secretly sneered in his heart.

As soon as these words were made, even if everyone had some complaints in their hearts, they all agreed on their faces, saying one sentence after another against their will.Everything just now seemed to be just a broken wine glass, and a "smashed peace" could be easily put away, and the focus of the banquet soon fell back to tonight's protagonist.

Zhong Huaiyuan has always turned a deaf ear to these insincere official words, and all his pride and rudeness in his life have been spent in hypocrisy and obedience with this group of people.He hastily ended the conversation and pulled away abruptly. His resistance was as clear as sake in a glass bottle.

Zhong Xingzheng was obviously in a bad mood, and before all the guests had left, he took his two sons back upstairs on the grounds that Renji had a temporary case seminar.

In the spacious study room, the air was filled with daggers and violent factors. Zhong Xing was sinking into the leather chair, slowly stroking the armrest, his eyes behind the lenses were dark and cold.

"You bastard!" Zhong Xingzheng couldn't help yelling, "The bigger you get, the more inappropriate you are. Do you know how many people are watching your jokes?"

Zhong Huaiyuan faced the oncoming accusation calmly, without even lowering his head, with a completely rebellious appearance: "I don't think so."

"Nizi!" Zhong Xing was being so angry by his unrepentant stubbornness that he threw the medical magazine in his hand directly, and the sharp edge of the page brushed the corner of Zhong Huaiyuan's eyebrows, leaving a fresh bloodstain.

Zhong Huaiyuan ignored the continuous slight pain in the wound, lowered his body and picked up the hidden weapon that attacked him just now, and put it back on the table. "That's not what you said just now." He looked straight at the distorted face in front of him without fear, and said slowly, "Those people didn't mean to cheer you up, they almost packaged me as Nan Dingle is alive."

"You can take it seriously when you're just acting. There's really no cure for you." Zhong Xing was sweeping away the tortured medical journals, and the back of his hand and forehead were bruised at the same time, "If I hadn't defended you, I'm afraid you'd die tomorrow Become the laughing stock of the entire medical community!"

Zhong Huaiyuan shrugged indifferently: "Since they said it, they are not afraid of being believed to be true."

"Speaking of laughing stock, I've been a long time ago." Zhong Huaiyuan's lips showed a faint smile, "The one who is really afraid of becoming the talk of tomorrow is probably yourself."

One sentence directly nailed Zhong Xingzheng in place, and his disbelieving eyes were filled with disgust for Zhong Huaiyuan.

The much-anticipated and anticipated butterfly cocoon finally hatched into a simple and ugly moth. After so many years, Zhong Xingzheng is still working hard to maintain this beautiful shell that has long been broken, even if it is covered with dust.Compared with developmental failure, still infancy is obviously a better fig leaf, so Zhong Xingzheng has been deliberately blurring the direction of Zhong Xingzheng's development, making others misunderstand that he is still learning.

Zhong Huaiyuan is like a drop of oil, mixed into the noble lineage of the Zhong family, it cannot be dissolved or diluted, it just floats on the surface unobtrusively, becoming a fatal flaw in Zhong Xingzheng's perfect persona.

The more he owns and the higher he stands, the more he will have delusions of persecution, and the more he will become a soldier, he is afraid that even a little bit of negative evaluation will become the driving force behind his fall from the top of the tower.

Zhong Xing was so upright that his whole body trembled, and he couldn't control his finger pointing at Zhong Huaiyuan, without any dignity at all: "Your brother is the object of others' praise and clinging to, how about you? It's just someone's after-dinner talk, a joke to ridicule our family! "

It's not that Zhong Huaiyuan is incapable of pain, it's just that too many such sarcastic remarks have already made him numb, even when the wound hurts to the extreme, he will lose consciousness: "Whatever you say."

Zhong Zhiting has been leaning against the bookshelf in silence, his eyes fell on the neatly stacked books, just like every internal dispute in the past, he was a bystander watching the excitement, it is more appropriate to be indifferent than to stay out of the matter.

Zhong Xingzheng has a lot of sustenance in naming his two sons. He knows how to stop and walks with a long-term goal in mind, but who knows that heaven fails to fulfill people's wishes, and when good intentions go to extremes, it is an inevitable curse.

"You don't deserve this name at all." Zhong Xing was gritting his teeth, trying to digest the pent-up anger.

Among Zhong Huaiyuan's acquaintances, the one with the biggest difference in name must be Zhong Xingzheng himself who spent his whole life trying to gain fame.But he had no intention of arguing with his domineering father, and after taking a deep breath, he finally said in a compromised way: "You can take it back or change it, I never cared."

Every sentence is a polite speech, but not because of the junior's humility, but because of alienation.The name Zhong Huaiyuan was just a false identity that he was forced to adapt to. He never poured any real feelings into it, and always longed for Zhong Xingzheng to take it back as soon as possible, as if he could start all over again without this name.

"How did our Zhong family raise you who are so incomprehensible." Zhong Xingzheng only felt that his blood pressure had soared to 190, and his blood vessels would explode anytime and anywhere. ?"

Zhong Xingzheng's view of professional superiority and inferiority is almost self-centered to the point of being defiant, and the conflict of values ​​between them has already reached the point of irreconcilability.Zhong Huaiyuan used to defend himself a few times, but when he realized that it was useless, he completely gave up his self-defense, but he still felt confused and powerless when he heard these sarcasms.

He couldn't figure it out, as a misunderstood disadvantage in the relationship between doctors and patients, if they don't get the respect they deserve internally, where should the nurses get the confidence to practice?

"If you still care about being a teacher, I ask you to treat everyone equally in the relationship between doctors and nurses." With a scrutinizing gaze, Zhong Huaiyuan kept a cold face and tried to clarify his point of view without emotion. Deserving to be your comrade in arms."

After hearing these disobedient words, Zhong Xingzheng gradually restrained himself.He looked down on his younger son, shot his eyes up and down a few times, and said coldly, "Don't think you are so noble."

A look of surprise flashed across Zhong Huaiyuan's face: "What do you mean?"

"The previous head nurse in the emergency department was only in her early thirties. Do you really think it's as simple as retreating from the front line to take care of her second child?" Zhong Xingzheng had a weird smile on his face, and every word turned into a counterattack blade, " If I didn't arrange it from it, there would be no room for you to be superior."

"Innocent." His expression was ferocious and distorted. Seeing Zhong Huaiyuan's blood-colored face, his tone became more and more excited, "Your seat has long been reserved on the ship you despise the most."

Zhong Huaiyuan felt regretful that a professional woman who was able to take care of her family and career suddenly chose to give up.The missing pieces finally filled the last gap in the puzzle, and all the unreasonable things in the past suddenly and cruelly became clear.

When the former head nurse looked at him when he left, Zhong Huaiyuan finally understood the unexplained meaning in his eyes. It was the helplessness of being manipulated and the contempt for the culprit.

Zhong Huaiyuan felt as if he was standing in the snow in the severe cold season, and his legs were gradually being stabbed by the cold sensation until he lost consciousness.The few glasses of champagne in his stomach suddenly turned upside down, making him feel sick.

He tried hard to hold his breath, for fear that when he opened his mouth, he could smell the same stench as Zhong Xingzheng's body.

Zhong Xingzheng squinted his eyes and shook his head sympathetically: "You have always been a member of the Zhong family."

In this home, even if you are careful enough, you can't keep it pure and pure.

Walking cautiously beside the dirty swamp, he didn't know that the bottom of his trousers had already been stained with the same filth.If you want to shake his belief, you don't need to do it yourself, just let him look down at his legs.

Wantonly destroying other people's lives and dreams and being able to escape unscathed is exactly what Zhong Xingzheng is best at.

"How about it, try to change your mentality, Xiaoyuan." Zhong Xingzheng regained the pleasure of being in control from Zhong Huaiyuan after a long time, which made him feel very happy, "Take back your self-righteous and cheap arrogance, and then you can get out through the back door gone."

The purpose of going through the back door is to avoid meeting guests in the front and embarrass the Zhong family. At this moment, these three words have become a brand new but vicious curse to humiliate Zhong Huaiyuan—in the eyes of others, he has long been classified as the most despised by him. of that category.

When people classify hazardous waste, they never judge the punishment according to the source of pollution.

In the face of the consequences and extreme pain of being murdered, sometimes it is not so important to clear up the root cause.

It took a long time before Zhong Huaiyuan let go of his clenched fists, and said softly, "Don't worry, I will go."

When turning around to leave, what fell into Zhong Huaiyuan's ears was not only Zhong Xingzheng's triumphant laughter, but also a shallow sigh from Zhong Zhiting who had been watching from the side.

The fragrance of Sijigui in the back garden could not lift his spirits, he thought, how could the extremely low alcohol in champagne so quickly numb his olfactory center, he felt that everything was smelly, it smelled like mold Madara's overnight meal.

The dignity and sharpness he tried his best to protect were all vulnerable in Zhong Xingzheng's eyes, and they would be shattered with a light pinch.At this moment, he understood and agreed with the evaluation he just received——

Naive.

Yes, from the moment he switched majors, he was childish, angry, and reckless.

Zhong Huaiyuan always thought that he was a precocious person, but in fact, that decision was the real rite of passage.In exchange for the weight to stimulate Zhong Xingzheng, he exchanged his dreams and love, and completely stripped himself of the value that could be used in a way that almost died together, thinking that such a defense could restore some dignity for him and his mother.

The impulsiveness of youth is like passing clouds and rain without warning, the rain comes with the clouds, and the clouds pass and stop.Zhong Huaiyuan never deceived himself, he always faced up to all his emotions, maturely experienced the long growing pains after the impulsiveness, and learned to digest the sequelae of passionate choices, even though he regretted it long ago.

The greetings of the guests in front of the door hadn't finished yet, Zhong Huaiyuan quietly left from the backyard.Except for the regular gardener, few people walk this road. Usually, there are only sporadic moonlight and the occasional chirping of insects to accompany him, but today there are more notification sounds from mobile phones.

Qi Dongqing's news was sent tirelessly like a music box with a broken valve.

"Brother Yuan, grandpa's medicinal wine is ready."

"Tomorrow, I will ask the store to pack it and send it to you according to the address."

"I will start a class later, teaching children how to make traditional Chinese medicine sachets."

"Although it cannot cure all diseases, it can be customized on demand."

“Adults are also welcome to experience it~”

It's strange, according to Zhong Huaiyuan's personality, he has never believed that sweet words can relieve pain, which has no medical support, but now he can't help but feel that Qi Dongqing's gentle voice has smoothed the wrinkles in his heart.When he came back to his senses, he was already standing downstairs in Hechun Hall.

After class, the milk dolls couldn't wait to show their parents the colorful traditional sachets in their hands, and then they were led and hugged away.Dr. Qi, who was wearing a jacket with holly pattern, stood under the lintel and looked at him with a smile, as gentle as the warm breeze in this spring night.

What Qi Dongqing said was "You're here", but Zhong Huaiyuan felt for no reason that these words were like "Welcome home", which made people completely relax.

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*Nepeta chinensis: Relieves the appearance and disperses wind, clears rashes and eliminates sores

The reason why Brother Yuan changed his major will be answered later in the article. In short, he is young and impulsive. He is slowly becoming fully mature while digesting the consequences.