before and after

Chapter 29

Ye Ruixin's intention was very clear, and he had already started to study the decoration design when he had breakfast the next day.

The restaurant is Liang Xiao's favorite part of the house.The three almost floor-to-ceiling glass windows behind the dining table bring the outdoor natural light into the room, and clearly present the well-groomed garden in front of you.

As long as you sit in front of the window, you can feel the beauty of nature presented by the changing seasons.

"Liang Xiao, I'm talking to you."

Hearing Ye Ruixin's voice, Liang Xiao pulled his thoughts back from the window.Judging from Ye Ruixin's expression, he should have ignored his voice just now.Reaching out to rub Ye Ruixin's hair, Liang Xiao smiled and said:

"Sorry, what?"

Ye Ruixin moved the floor plan he had drawn to Liang Xiao, and said:

"Let's connect these two rooms and make it your study. This way your study will be bigger, and the things I used to have can be moved to other places. Then..."

Liang Xiao pointed to the room he used to store Ye Ruixin's old things, and said:

"This room cannot be moved."

"why?"

"Except for this, the others are up to you."

Ye Ruixin could see Liang Xiao's persistence, and knew the reason for his persistence.The emotion gushing from the bottom of his heart almost overwhelmed him, but Ye Ruixin didn't want Liang Xiao to be seen through.

"Prudish! Stubborn!"

Liang Xiao picked up the coffee cup in his hand again, and said disapprovingly, "You can say whatever you want."

"Then you come to think of a plan."

"Whoever wants to change will want to."

Ye Ruixin smiled, he didn't really want to argue with Liang Xiao, but the more he found it very interesting to argue with him.It's more interesting than when I was studying.

"no!"

Liang Xiao took Ye Ruixin's hand on the table, and sat closer to him.Picking up the pen, Liang Xiao said while drawing:

"Then open up here, and then move the study downstairs. Then..."

Ye Ruixin's right hand was held by Liang Xiao, and his body naturally leaned gently on Liang Xiao's arms.Ye Ruixin liked the feeling of being connected with Liang Xiao.Holding hands, hugging, even just side by side or eye contact.

Ye Ruixin's love for Liang Xiao was revealed from these subtle movements, and every time there was a gentle enough response.

"I want to leave a sofa in the study room where I can lie down."

"Punish me to sleep on the sofa?"

Hearing Liang Xiao's reaction like this, Ye Ruixin was surprised.He said:

"You miss me that much?"

"Isn't it?" Liang Xiao pulled Ye Ruixin into his arms, resting his chin on Ye Ruixin's shoulder, "You have always been a supporter of capitalism, a standard exploiting class."

Holding Ye Ruixin's wrist, Liang Xiao controlled his hand with one akimbo and pointing in the air with the other.

"Not here, not there."

Liang Xiao's actions made Ye Ruixin laugh out loud, it was the first time Steward Liu heard such happy laughter in this room.Mr. Liang's clear voice echoed in this big room, and some things that had been left behind seemed to come back again.The outline became more and more distinct, carrying this joy.

Steward Liu originally wanted to add some hot tea to his husband, but as soon as he approached the restaurant, he realized that he should be more careful and considerate in the future.Butler Liu turned and walked away with a smile, not disturbing the gentlemen's involuntary kisses.

It was still early when they went out, and Ye Ruixin was still lying on the soft bed.After Liang Xiao turned off the alarm clock, he was hugged by a dazed person beside him.Ye Ruixin rubbed the tip of her nose that was itchy by her own hair on Liang Xiao's chest, and whispered:

"Have a good day!"

Liang Xiao bowed his head and kissed Ye Ruixin's hair, and said, "Well, you can sleep for a while."

The person in his arms raised his face and asked for a kiss with his eyes closed.

Liang Xiao looked at Ye Ruixin's appearance, his soft hair was scattered in a mess, intertwined with his gentle eyelashes on his handsome face.The slightly raised lips were full of blood due to the warmth of the bed, and were more moist than usual.

Liang Xiao did not bow his head, but lightly touched Ye Ruixin's lips with his fingers.Liang Xiao did this on purpose, hoping to see if Ye Ruixin would find out.Unexpectedly, the person who fell asleep until he was dazed knew it. After getting the "kiss", he turned around and hugged the quilt tightly to sleep on the other side.

Liang Xiao laughed out loud, then turned around to Ye Ruixin's face, and kissed again.

This move made Ye Ruixin a little sober.He rubbed his eyes, opened them and looked at Liang Xiao.

"If you keep doing this, I won't be able to sleep."

Ye Ruixin's clear voice seemed to be enveloped in cotton candy at this moment, soft and waxy.

Getting up to cover the quilt for him, Liang Xiao said, "Sleep well."

Liang Xiao likes to see him so relaxed and comfortable.Going to the bathroom to wash up, Liang Xiao remembered a small incident when he was studying in the past when he was shaving in front of the mirror.

That time Ye Ruixin fell asleep on the sofa in the living room.That is the sofa in the living room is not big, but Ye Ruixin can also sleep unsteadily.He dropped the book on the ground, but he hugged the pillows of the sofa tightly in his arms.That look, like a child sleeping with a teddy bear.

Liang Xiao squatted down beside the sofa, ready to take away Ye Ruixin's pillow to wake him up.But seeing Ye Ruixin sleeping, Liang Xiao suddenly had the urge to kiss him.When he suddenly realized this, Liang Xiao realized that the distance between them was getting closer and closer under his own involuntary control.

The violent beating of his heart made Liang Xiao almost escape from the living room at this moment and return to his room.But the door could not separate the graceful feeling at that moment, Ye Ruixin occupied Liang Xiao's mood all night.

At that moment, Liang Xiao knew the so-called liking for the first time.

Liang Xiao rinsed off the foam with hot water and looked in the mirror to see if there was any residue.The scars on the neck and the back of the hands are only very light in color, but the smile on the corners of the mouth and eyebrows can be detected without looking closely.

Liang Xiao will come back to work today, colleagues already knew in advance, everyone is very happy to see Liang Xiao again. Joe was obviously the happiest one. When walking towards the inpatient ward with Liang Xiao, he made a brief report on the patients Liang Xiao had handed over to him.

"I'm very relieved to give you the patient."

"It's not the same." Joe laughed and said, "Teacher have lunch together?"

"it is good."

Back at the hospital again, Liang Xiao felt extremely relaxed.Having been a resident doctor for several years, Liang Xiao is very familiar with every corner and every hospital bed here.Over the years, being a doctor has long been a habit of Liang Xiao, and he doesn't need to adjust any work status.

The first day's work was an ordinary outpatient clinic, but for Liang Xiao, as a doctor, he could never relax for a moment.

There are those who come for the first time for examination, and there are also patients who continue to fight against the disease.Outpatient doctors need to make judgments based on the patient's description of the condition and give them the most accurate and reasonable inspection arrangements.According to the results of the inspection, the next step of treatment will be carried out.

For most diseases, there is already a whole set of treatment options in the medical field.However, patients are not uniform like textbooks. They have different growth environments, economic backgrounds, and family situations.

In Liang Xiao's view, the objects he treats are people.In addition to prescribing the right medicine, it is more important to "see people".

For Liang Xiao, sometimes the greatest responsibility is not just to save the lives of patients.Instead, be a guide, leading patients and their families through the most difficult moments in their lives, so that they can continue to go on and create a new life.

When the first diagnosis is made, what the doctor says will have a very important impact on the patient.Liang Xiao hopes that the patient can have a clear understanding of his disease, but at the same time, he does not think that explaining all the facts too clearly will help the patient recover.

It's like a Kaplan-Meier curve (survival curve that measures patient survival and disease progression).Liang Xiao doesn't think it's a correct behavior to tell patients how long they can live based on probability.

During lunch time, apart from Joe, there are other colleagues in the department.After a light meal, everyone chatted about what happened in the hospital in the past few months, mutual friends and some new technologies in the professional field.

Drinking coffee, Liang Xiao and his colleagues enjoyed their leisure time in the afternoon, and everything was the same as in the past.But the only difference is that he is holding a mobile phone in his hand.

It is a very disrespectful behavior to play with the mobile phone while chatting with others, Liang Xiao tries to avoid this as much as possible.But his gaze was involuntarily restricted on the screen. The effect of the slight vibration of the phone at this time was similar to sugar in the brain.

Liang Xiao's changes were naturally discovered by his colleagues.While everyone happily congratulated him on falling in love, they felt sorry for the other outstanding single women in the hospital.

There was not much time left for the lunch break, Liang Xiao excused himself and left his seat.Walking to the outdoor corridor, Liang Xiao picked up his mobile phone and made a call.

"Doctor Liang."

Ye Ruixin's voice came from the other end of the phone, and Liang Xiao looked at the sky through the gap between the trees.His clear voice merged with the sky at this moment, blue and sweet.

"Did you eat well and take your medicine on time?"

"Are you just calling your lover like this? Dr. Liang."

Such opening remarks made Ye Ruixin laugh.The last word was deliberately prolonged by Ye Ruixin.Accompanied by a smile, Ye Ruixin's breathing was transmitted through the phone, trembling in Liang Xiao's heart.

"I miss you." The sudden confession was so gentle that there was no warning, and this time it was the turn of the person on the other end of the phone to stop talking, "Should it be like this?"

"I won't tell you anymore, I'm very busy."

"and many more."

"doing what?"

Ye Ruixin tapped the sprouts in the garden, waiting for Liang Xiao to continue.

"Watching a movie tonight?"

"okay."

"I'll see you later that night."

"and many more."

"Ok?"

The expectation this time is Liang Xiao.

"I love you."

There were people passing by, Liang Xiao was a little embarrassed, even though he knew that he was the only one who heard this sentence.

"Ah."

Liang Xiu is Liang Xiao's older brother, several years older than Liang Xiao.Ye Ruixin knew Liang Xiu and had met him several times.It's just that Ye Ruixin's status at that time was Liang Xiao's college classmate, at most a roommate.A painless relationship.Neither side cared.

Liang Xiu is a businessman, and a successful self-made businessman.If it's about business, Ye Ruixin will never have any burden.But what we are going to talk about today is not business.

For some people, there is no need to sort out things at all.Their keen brains are weaving the web at any time, and all the information is incorporated into the relevant logical relationship as early as the first time it is absorbed.

Liang Xiao couldn't contact him back then, so he would definitely contact the friends they both knew.Finally, when there is no news, he will choose to use the search engine.Typing a friend's name in Google, behind this move is a lot of helpless pain.

Drug trafficking, wanted, hostage-taking, plane crash...

Ye Ruixin didn't know how many keywords were related to his name, but he knew that Liang Xiao would not believe such a fact.He will ask someone to investigate, even if there is more information and hope.And he, a doctor of medicine who has been studying for a long time, does not have many contacts in the business circle. The biggest connection with the country is his brother Liang Xiu.

Liang Xiao would definitely ask, and Liang Xiu could find out everything.

At that time, no one in Hong Kong knew about it.In addition to news reports, how big is the business district?

Ye Ruixin knows this circle all too well.There are no secrets in the financial world, and every piece of news affects the ups and downs of stock prices.The entanglement between himself and Li Jin must have spread in the rivers and lakes, vividly.

Liang Xiu may not tell Liang Xiao, but he must know.But that should not be the full context of this conversation.

Today is only the second day after Liang Xiao returns to work in the hospital. Liang Xiu must have known about Liang Xiao's resignation when he called at this time.As for the purpose of Liang Xiao's previous resignation was to help him quit drugs, it should no longer be a secret.

Ye Ruixin knew what Liang Xiu said in this meeting, he could guess it.

"Have."

"One o'clock in the afternoon, see King Cross."

"it is good."

The phone was hung up, and from the beginning to the end, there was no extra word.

Ye Ruixin put down the phone and asked Butler Liu to cancel the appointment at the massage parlor. The driver came back and took him directly to the coffee shop.

KingCross is a well-known coffee shop in the downtown area.Ye Ruixin lives far away from the urban area, it takes about an hour's drive.The properties of the ibuprofen have not yet taken effect, and the pain in the lower back hits intermittently.

The rain gradually subsided but did not stop.The driver parked the car in front of the restaurant, got out of the car under an umbrella and opened the door.

"Slow down, sir."

The whole nerve in Ye Ruixin's left leg seemed to be pulled tightly by someone, and he couldn't exert any force when he landed.Fortunately, the driver stood aside with a hand in advance to stand firm.

Ye Ruixin waved his hands and straightened his back on the spot.He took the umbrella and walked forward alone.

"You wait for me in the car."

"know."

It's still early, only twelve o'clock.

Ye Ruixin arrived a little earlier because he didn't want Liang Xiu to see that he was walking with a limp.

Liang Xiu arrived almost 20 minutes before the appointed time. Ye Ruixin was sitting in a more conspicuous position. Liang Xiu walked in this direction as soon as he entered the door. Obviously, he recognized Ye Ruixin at a glance.

Liang Xiu sat down opposite Ye Ruixin, his eyes met, but he didn't intend to speak.During this peaceful minute, both of them compared each other with the difference in their memories.

In Ye Ruixin's impression, Liang Xiao and Liang Xiu don't look alike.Due to the difference in living environment, the temperament of the two is also very different, and they can't even be seen as brothers.Today, Ye Ruixin discovered that the blood relationship left similarities on their faces.

This once again reminded Ye Ruixin that this is Liang Xiao's real brother and his relative.

But for Liang Xiu, Ye Ruixin is very different from what he imagined.In Liang Xiu's vision, Ye Ruixin is nothing more than two situations.Hostile and hard-edged, or, drugged beyond recognition.

It's just that neither of these situations occur.Ye Ruixin still has some old things on her body, sharp and dangerous.It's just that this leopard seems to have lost its sharp claws and is no longer aggressive.Of course, this does not rule out the possibility of an illusion.

The waiter stepped forward to order, and Liang Xiu only asked for a glass of water.Then he leaned forward, choosing to break the silence actively.

"You don't need to exchange pleasantries. You are a smart person, and I'll get straight to the point."

Ye Ruixin nodded slightly.

"If you and Liang Xiao are really suitable, we will be together ten years ago."

This sentence did not bring too many surprises to Ye Ruixin, Tian said: "If I were you, I would do the same thing today."

Liang Xiu smiled, and he shook his head.

"I don't care about Liang Xiao's affairs. Today, I asked you to meet as an outsider just to let you think about some issues that you may have overlooked."

"You said."

"He treats you very well and never leaves. So you start to have an infinite affection for him. It makes you mistakenly think that this is love."

When Liang Xiao spoke, he kept looking into Ye Ruixin's eyes.Unsurprisingly, Liang Xiu caught a trace of fluctuation.

"Actually, you just happened to meet again on a suspension bridge."

Every word of Liang Xiu accurately captures the changes in the atmosphere and guides them quietly.

Although he didn't have a close friendship, Liang Xiu already had a general understanding of what kind of person Ye Ruixin was based on his understanding of what Ye Ruixin had done in the past.Ye Ruixin is not difficult to understand, he has a distinct paranoia in his character, and has a very self-styled behavior.

All the cliche coercion and temptation will not shake Ye Ruixin, the only one who can shake him is himself.He will leave Liang Xiao only if his trust in love is fundamentally disintegrated.

After more than ten years of love, Liang Xiao is not an ordinary person to him.He knew all of Liang Xiao's dedication and affection, and once he realized that he didn't love Liang Xiao, he would definitely leave.

"I've finished what I want to say, goodbye."

Liang Xiu didn't care about Ye Ruixin's indifference at the moment, he generously left Ye Ruixin enough space to think about this issue.

The rain outside the window kept falling, and time passed slowly.

......

If you were right, you would have been together ten years ago.

Your infinite affection for him makes you mistakenly think that this is love.

You just happened to meet again on a drawbridge.

……

Ye Ruixin stared blankly at the untouched water glass in front of him.His thoughts were more chaotic than ever before, with many fragments vying to emerge before Ye Ruixin's eyes.The overlapping and interlacing of memories brings about chaotic blanks.Ye Ruixin's body was exhausted, as if there were countless emotions precipitated in the body, but there was no outlet to express it.

There was a sudden noise around, Ye Ruixin recovered and found that the tables around were full of people.He turned to look out the window, the rain had stopped.

After paying the bill, Ye Ruixin stood up while leaning on the edge of the table.

The driver sent Ye Ruixin back to the villa, and everything was as usual.Ye Ruixin's basic necessities of life, food, shelter, and transportation are all taken care of properly.

Ye Ruixin didn't talk much that day, Uncle Liu thought it was because he was not feeling well.

But Ye Ruixin didn't evade the feeling in his heart, even in the sleepy midnight, when he closed his eyes, he couldn't get rid of that sense of chaos.Ye Ruixin recalled everything in the past 30 years, and the wounds in his memory were being pecked bit by bit.

Love......

Ye Ruixin knows what love is, he has loved so passionately.

It was a kind of scorching heat and struggle that one could not wait to melt into flesh and blood.

There's a solid feel, a weight, and a smell.There is a sense of happiness like a fairy tale, and there is the raging pain of falling into the abyss.

Thinking of this, Ye Ruixin felt a terrible sense of emptiness in his heart, and his beating heart was dull and painful.

Those memories are so heavy and distant.Carrying life on his back, separating life and death.

In those days of insensitivity, Ye Ruixin held on tightly to his only soul.It was as if a pebble in the road could crush his feigned steady steps and cause him to fall to the ground, helpless.

Ye Ruixin had been waiting for this day.Just before that, he reunited with Liang Xiao.

It was indeed a drawbridge.

There, Liang Xiao and Ye Ruixin walked slowly side by side.Liang Xiao supported Ye Ruixin and restrained his steps.But Ye Ruixin slowed down according to Liang Xiao's pace.

Ye Ruixin has never really walked with anyone.

Either be guarded, or chased.

He has long been used to the loneliness in the vast crowd, used to walking alone under the wet moonlight.But this does not prevent him from feeling the happiness of working hand in hand with others.

That feeling is so sure, so fresh.He even changed the air in Ye Ruixin's body, feeling touched deeply into his skin.

The composition of the sunlight began to change, and every step they took made the outlines under their feet more distinct.All the precarious and innumerable Enron rubbed against each other, and were eventually erased bit by bit.

Ye Ruixin suddenly understood that there is no standard definition of love, every relationship has its background and cause.No one is more important than the other, and any comparison is a foolish assumption.

For the rest of her life, Ye Ruixin only wanted Liang Xiao to be together.

For a moment or a lifetime, all he wanted was this person.

She closed her eyes, tears streaming down her face, but Ye Ruixin smiled.

Reaching out to wipe away the tears, Ye Ruixin turned to face Liang Xiao's sleeping side.

Good night, he said.

After a night of no dreams, when the sunlight re-illuminated the room, Ye Ruixin already had one more person beside her.

Liang Xiao returned home from the hospital, he washed his hands and approached the bed.

After last night's operation, he originally wanted to call Ye Ruixin, but the call came from the emergency department just after he walked out of the operating room.Liang Xiao immediately went downstairs to the emergency room for the next operation.

He didn't rest all night, and Liang Xiao worked four hours of overtime in addition to ten hours of work.After that, he also needs to guide some cases during the postoperative care interval and before ward rounds.

When he walked out of the hospital, Liang Xiu was so tired that he almost fell asleep.However, now is different from before.There are still people waiting for me at home.After Liang Xiao packed up his things, he immediately went out to take a taxi and came back.

Sitting down by the bed, Liang Xiao reached out and touched Ye Ruixin's sleeping face, but unexpectedly woke him up.

"Why are your eyes so red?" Liang Xiao asked with his head down.

"It rained yesterday, my back hurts and I didn't sleep well."

Liang Xiao reached out and rubbed Ye Ruixin's waist, and asked:

"Now? Do you want to accompany you to see?"

"Liang Xiao."

Holding his hand in his hand, Ye Ruixin looked into Liang Xiao's eyes and said:

"I just want to be with you."

"I know."

Love has never been complicated.