bedtime counseling

Chapter 4 Hope You Treat Me Kindly

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Wu Ke's strength suddenly became so great that Liang Ze's right shoulder seemed to be dislocated in pain.

With a bang, Liang Ze was pushed against the door panel by him, the smell of alcohol was very close, and the gaze locked on his face was unbreakable.

"What do you want to tell me?"

The voice was very low, and every word was ruthless.

"Say it now, don't affect my rest."

Liang Ze's eyes had already turned into walnuts, and he looked at him with difficulty while propping up his swollen eyelids, but he couldn't see anything clearly through a layer of mist.

"I……"

I want to ask for his forgiveness, but I don't know where to start.The once thriving emotion was cut off in the middle, blown by the wind, drenched by the rain, and finally survived after several tortures, but in the end it only produced a bitter fruit.

"I really miss you."

The fingers on the shoulders suddenly tightened.

"Miss me?" Wu Ke's face was cold, "You will not forget what we said at the beginning."

how is this possible.

Liang Ze was silent for a moment, then nodded slightly, "I remember."

At the beginning, Wu Ke said on the phone that if Liang Ze really decided not to make progress, then they should not meet again.Wu Ke once persuaded himself to forget about that distracted kiss, overcame the rejection of Liang Ze's overtures, and remained Liang Ze's friend for the rest of his life.He is willing to accept Liang Ze's "differentness", even willing to let Liang Ze stay by his side...

Playing tricks, losing his temper, and fighting with others, Wu Ke can accept these.

"So what you're after is this kind of life?" Wu Ke stared at him firmly, not missing any subtle expressions on his expression, "You gave up everything you agreed with me, just to serve the dishes in the restaurant and let others touch you." Ass, live like this for a lifetime?"

Of course not, but what's the point of saying this now?Liang Ze clenched his teeth, trembling violently, even the door panel made a soft sound.

"You make me very disappointed."

Wu Ke let go, turned around and walked away two steps, took off his suit jacket and fell to the ground.

Liang Ze's body was on the verge of falling, and he had to stretch his hands behind his back, holding the doorknob tightly: "Everyone has their own destiny, Ake."

The thick nasal sound scattered the six words.

"I used to think that the two of us are the same, at least there is not such a big gap. I thought I could catch up with you by working hard. But I was wrong..." He shook his head, his expression was gloomy, "Not at all It's so simple, we are all too stupid. In fact, people are born differently, you don't lack anything, I..."

"I came to you, and I couldn't even treat you to a meal."

Young and ignorant, they thought they could break through the shackles of class with a brute force, but in fact they were people from two worlds from the beginning to the end.But Liang Ze felt that he just realized this earlier than Wu Ke.

Through the dim light, several deep lines appeared on Wu Ke's brows.

"In this case, why did you want to be friends with me in the first place, and why do you come to me now. Don't you feel ashamed of you playing me again and again?"

He obviously wanted to have a good talk with him tonight, and wanted to ask how he was doing these years, but Wu Ke didn't know what was wrong, and he kept saying hurtful words one after another, as if he wanted to get revenge on Liang Ze for leaving him alone. In Linjiang.

Liang Ze was forced to turn pale by him: "No, I didn't."

"You have nothing, didn't you play me or violated the agreement between us?"

He stared at Liang Ze, as if he had grasped a ten thousandth hope, thinking that he would hear the explanation he had been waiting for for many years.But Liang Ze turned his gaze away awkwardly, and his lips moved slightly: "How can you say that I tricked you... You were the one who left first."

That layer of window paper was pierced too suddenly, Wu Ke couldn't accept it for a while, and went back to the city from his hometown without leaving a word.

but--

"But I called you later!" Wu Ke was rarely so loud.He was trembling from Liang Ze's anger, and the veins under his temples were throbbing, "I said that the agreement is still valid, and I will wait for you in Linjiang after the college entrance examination. What about you, what did you say?"

Liang Ze said, don't wait, he chose to give up.

Some things are just so ridiculous. The seemingly passive person actually holds the initiative firmly, and the one who keeps shouting for a lifetime is the first to let go.

Wu Ke's heart turned cold, and he turned around and wiped his face.He turned on the light, picked up the suit on the floor and threw it on the sofa, and when he came back Liang Ze was still standing at the entrance.The white wall behind is very wide, bare and nothing, making Liang Ze look like a thin bamboo pole.

"Why are you still standing here? This is my home, and you are not welcome in my home."

Liang Ze shrank his shoulders, and slowly raised his eyes: "A Ke, you have changed a lot."

The former Wu Ke would never speak in this tone.

"Haven't you changed?"

Yes.

The first to change is obviously myself.

Just when I was about to say something, liquid suddenly gushed out of my nose.Liang Ze hastily rubbed the back of his hand, and in the end rubbed the dark red blood on the back of his hand.

He has had this problem for some time. Long-term staying up late and malnutrition lead to poor liver function, so he is prone to nosebleeds when he is excited.

Because he had been used to it for a long time, he turned his back to take out the paper without saying a word, but unexpectedly his wrist was grabbed from behind.

"Ake?"

Wu Ke dragged him to the bathroom, turned on the cold water, his expression was as gloomy as the night outside.Liang Ze took a look at him in the mirror, bent over to wash his chin and the back of his hands in a very sensible manner, he left for a while and then came back in his corner of the eye.

Turn off the water, there is an extra pack of paper towels in front of you.

"Thank you."

After the bleeding was stopped, Liang Ze walked back to the living room, trying to wipe off the blood that accidentally dripped on the floor, but Wu Ke said:

"I come."

Under the clear and plain light, he came over, rolled up his sleeves and squatted down.Standing is okay, squatting like this makes his shoulders broad and flat.This silent and solid figure from the back touched Liang Ze's heart silently once again.

There wasn't much blood, so he wiped it with a wet wipe after wiping it with tissue paper.Not seeing anything like alcohol spray, Liang Ze asked uncomfortably, "Do you want to disinfect?"

His cleanliness must not be getting any better.

Wu Ke stopped, looking at the shadow on the floor: "Liang Ze."

Liang Ze was slightly taken aback.

"Do you want to continue to be my friend?"

Liang Ze was not the only one who had a bad life.Under the overhead light, Wu Ke lowered his head slightly, his face was blue, and he had an air of handsomeness, but his expression was extremely lonely.

"You..." Liang Ze's heart skipped a beat.

"I've met a lot of people and made a lot of friends in the past few years." Wu Ke paused for a moment, as if he was suffering from drinking too much, or trying to suppress some hot emotions, "But they are not like you , treat me as the most important one.”

No one would regard Wu Ke as the most important friend in life like Liang Ze did back then.At the age of sixteen or seventeen, they are ignorant of the world and even more ignorant of the future, but they are not ignorant of emotion and loneliness.They experienced many ups and downs before they were adults. Like two sensitive and affectionate little animals, they struggled to find a narrow hole in the earth, and huddled together in the wind and snow to keep each other warm.

"Grandma left the year before last." He stood up and turned to Liang Ze, "That time I felt that I needed you very much."

Both of them began to breathe tremblingly.

"And as you said, I was also at fault in the past. I was too impulsive. As a friend, I didn't give you enough sense of security. Now that we are all mature, it's better to forget the past and give this friendship a chance."

Wu Ke is a frank and pragmatic person.These words have been in his heart for many years, and every word is carefully considered. He thought he would have no chance to say it, but today God let them meet again.

But forget what happened, is it possible?Even if Wu Ke could forget about it and just be friends for life as if nothing had happened, Liang Ze couldn't do it, because some things cannot be changed.

Thinking of the gap that the two of them would never be able to cross, Liang Ze felt a strong heart palpitation at first, followed by despair.

"No more..."

Wu Ke frowned: "What did you say?"

"I said it's better not to."

Don't do it all over again.

Wu Ke looked at him in disbelief.

Liang Ze looked aside: "You know that I regard you as the most important one, not because I need friends."

He is selfish.

Wu Ke stood there, his body and shadow completely motionless.Liang Ze was clutching a tissue, with a faint smell of blood in his nostrils, and his back was wet with sweat unknowingly.

"To be honest, I really miss you these few years. After I saw you that night, whether I was awake or asleep, I only had you in my mind. Even though I knew it would make you disgusted, I still wanted to see you." He bit his lower lip hard, and tasted blood in his mouth, "But the more this happens, the more I can't be friends with you again, because I know I can't do it."

Now that you have decided to speak clearly, you have nothing to worry about.He raised his head, and saw his outline from the bottom of Wu Ke's dark pupils.

"Every time I see you, I like you more, and every second I spend with you, I can't leave you more. If this goes on, I will only get deeper and deeper, and you will only hate me more and more. In the end, even Friends can't do it."

Wu Ke's brows became tighter and tighter, and he clutched his chest.

"You don't believe it? I'll prove it to you."

Liang Ze's voice changed.

The next moment he closed his eyes, tiptoed and printed his lips on it.At that moment, my heart constricted like an electric shock, and my soul trembled hastily and embarrassingly, I just felt that death was worth it.

But when Wu Ke reacted, he pushed him away violently, pushing him back a big step, almost losing his balance and falling to the ground.

The living room was suddenly eerily quiet.

Feeling the strange moistness of his lips and the breath that didn't belong to him remaining between his teeth, Wu Ke's hairs stood on end, and he walked into the bathroom in the next second and slammed the door shut!

With a bang, the door frame shook.

Liang Ze blinked reflexively, feeling as if he had fallen into an ice cave.Before waiting for a few seconds, there was a suppressed retching sound from the bathroom...

After standing still for a moment, Liang Ze turned and left, closing the door gently.

The wind is getting colder outside.

He walked along the sidewalk, the blind bricks on the ground one after another, and the flying mosquitoes under the street lamps circled one by one, and the surrounding was so quiet that it made people panic.

He didn't say a word, only his joints were bumping against each other.

There is no star in the distant sky, like a thick black cloth covering the top of the head, so stuffy that people can't breathe, and I really want to cut it with a sharp knife.

The long street has no end in sight, like a ferocious beast with its bloody mouth wide open in the distance, waiting to devour the single prey in one gulp.The canvas bag in his arms was very heavy, but Liang Ze didn't seem to feel it. At first he stared at the road and walked slowly, then his feet walked faster and faster, more and more anxiously, and finally he ran desperately.

The wind howled.

The messy branches cut across his face, and he didn't even notice that his skin was pierced, he just ran as hard as he could.The nostalgia, longing, and despair that had been hidden in his body for six years suddenly emerged, suppressing them together with the boundless darkness, forcing him to open his mouth to pant violently, as short and oppressive as if he was short of oxygen, but the pain did not subside , but became heavier and sharper.

After stopping for a second, he spread his legs and rushed to the middle of the road, running crazily along the central axis, shouting like crazy.

"what--"

"what!"

"what!"

Only the night responded with silence.

After shouting, there was only crying.He was so tired that he squatted down, his nosebleed dripping to the ground.

It turned out that opening the wound was such a painful and exciting thing, so excited that my whole body trembled.