bedtime counseling

Chapter 11

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Hearing these three words in Wu Ke's ears was tantamount to protecting that person.Thinking of what Liang Ze said back then about liking him and only wanting him, Wu Ke felt that he was deeply fooled, and an unknown fire burned in his heart.

He turned his face away: "How could you have said those words?"

Liang Ze's mind flickered, and he let go of his hand.

"What did I say?"

"you--"

Wu Ke looked back, his eyes were full of anger.

"Do you still have any sense of shame? Do you know how old you were at that time? Have you never regretted it?"

He was so angry that he lost his cool rarely, and his original good temper was gone.Liang Ze was overwhelmed by him like this, first he was astonished, then he slowly understood his words.

Regret?

To say that there is not at all, of course, is self-deception.If it wasn't for my own impulse to push Wu Ke away, maybe Wu Ke was still by my side when the accident happened, and the ending might be rewritten accordingly.But even if I do it all over again, I probably would still do it that way, because there are many things I can't help.

Liang Ze managed to calm down under that cold gaze, tried his best to restrain the sourness in his heart, and said in an unsteady voice: "Things are not what you think..."

"It's not like that, what's that like." Wu Ke's tone was aggressive, "Do you want to say that you were young and deceived by others at that time, or do you want to say that it was just a whim at the time, and you were just playing with the other party."

"Of course not!" Liang Ze suddenly raised his head, looked into his eyes and repeated, "Of course not...I'm serious about him."

Just because she was serious, she would have sex with him regardless of the consequences, even though she knew that doing so would only arouse his deeper disgust and resistance.

"You don't need to tell me this, I don't want to hear it." Wu Ke turned his face coldly, "Whether you are in love or just for fun, I'm not interested in your private affairs. As long as you don't come to pester me again, why not?" It will be all right."

Liang Ze swayed slightly, relying on the support of the armrest of the sofa to not fall down.

"I'm not pestering you. If you think I'm a nuisance staying at your house, then I'll just go."

It was raining heavily outside, the windows were crackling by the raindrops, and the big trees in the distance were shaking in the strong wind.In such bad weather, if you go out rashly, even with an umbrella, you will get completely wet.But Liang Ze couldn't care about that much anymore, he had to leave here, the sooner the better.

He wanted to take the bag and leave, but Wu Ke went over and stopped him, "How much more trouble do you want to cause me? Do you expect me to see you off in such heavy rain?"

Liang Ze's expression remained unchanged, but his jaw was trembling slightly: "I can—"

Wu Ke interrupted sharply: "Do you think you can have a car in such a heavy rain, or do you think you can walk back on two legs?"

Liang Ze's upper and lower lips touched, and he tried to speak several times without success, and in the end all of them were choked up.Wu Ke was still looking at him at first, but then he turned his back as if he couldn't stand it anymore, and gave an ultimatum in a hoarse voice: "Stay here for the night honestly. When the rain stops tomorrow morning, where do you want to go? People care about you."

After speaking, he went straight to the balcony, leaving Liang Ze with a cold back.

Liang Ze turned his gaze away, wanting to take another look at that gentle and indifferent face, but Wu Ke didn't look back after standing there for a long time.After an unknown amount of time, Liang Ze lowered his head and picked up his bag, and walked slowly into the second bedroom step by step.

The room was dead silent.

He fell on the bed, clenched his teeth tightly, tears flowed out silently and violently, his heart felt like thousands of knives were twisting.

There is nothing wrong with liking someone, but when the other person hates you and loathes you, this kind of liking becomes unforgivable.It is imposed on the other party, and it locks one's heart like a shackle, but what is locked up is only the unattainable hope and the illusory past.

An unrequited like is so heavy, Liang Ze often feels out of breath these years, he grits his teeth and throws it away, then picks it up again in disgrace.The longer it took, the more this liking seemed to be a part of his body, stubbornly growing in his heart, and he couldn't pull it out if he wanted to survive.

This night, Liang Ze was once again in a desperate situation, lying on the bed and unable to feel the passage of time.On the balcony separated by a wall, Wu Yi stood facing out the window for a long time, still unable to figure out how things turned out like this.He obviously wanted to have a good talk with Liang Ze at the beginning, but he finally asked for leave, bought a mobile phone, and even connected Liang Ze to come to his house to have a talk, but in the end he still couldn't reach a good result.

Does the problem lie with Liang Ze or with himself?Wu Ke didn't know whether it was because he was too strong or because Liang Ze asked too much, but he knew that if Liang Ze hadn't said that while playing the game, maybe the conversation tonight would have been more peaceful.

While sitting on the balcony smoking, Wu Ke remembered the anticipation before departure this morning, and felt like a monkey being played by someone.But he also had to admit that just because Liang Ze was sleeping next to him, the usual lingering loneliness disappeared.

Perhaps because of this, for the first time, he was willing to recall the past, especially the days when he was entangled by Liang Ze and couldn't get rid of it.

At the beginning of the second year of high school, everyone who wanted to improve their grades was studying hard, except Liang Ze.Liang Ze is an outlier in the class, he plays basketball when others are doing problems, sleeps when others are in class, and works while others are sleeping.

Although it's been more than half a year since joining the class, Wu Ke and Liang Ze still don't know each other very well, they only exchanged a few words when collecting homework.However, even in those few times, the communication between the two was not pleasant.

"Did not bring."

"lost."

"It was stolen."

"Ewed by a dog."

Liang Ze who couldn't turn in his homework made endless excuses. Wu Ke believed it once or twice at first, but later found out that he didn't write it at all.Once Liang Ze didn't come to school for three full days, Wu Ke went to the office to hand in class homework, but was stopped by the class teacher in front of the desk.

"You live closest to Liang Ze in the class. Tonight, you find time to visit him, and tell the teachers to give him one last chance and ask him to come to school this week."

Liang Ze's family is so poor that they don't even have a phone.

Wu Ke nodded, turned around and walked out, but stopped slowly when he reached the door.

"If he won't."

The class teacher was an old man in his fifties. Hearing this, he raked the few hairs on his head and said, "If you refuse, you will be at your own risk."

For hopelessly poor students, the school is very likely to expel them directly in order to maintain the enrollment rate.

What kind of life will a person who doesn't even have a high school diploma face in the future?On the way home from self-study next night, Wu Ke kept thinking about this question with headphones in his ears.

He and Liang Ze's home are in the same direction, but in the past, they would always go their separate ways when they came to the small shop.

There were no street lights in the countryside, and Wu Ke could smell a faint fragrance along the way, but it was so dark that he couldn't see anything clearly.Passing by a pond covered with moss, a round and bright moon like a silver disk is reflected on the water.Counting from the pond, after hearing the fifth song, he arrived at Liang Ze's house.

In fact, he didn't know him, but from the dilapidated condition of the bungalow in front of him, he can roughly infer it.The moment he took off the earphones, a stubborn and sharp tone pierced into his heart from a distance.

"Who dares to touch my sister? Back off!"

It was Liang Ze's voice.

Wu Ke's shoulders sank, and he hurried over.

The dark night was illuminated by a ray of light.

In front of the low bungalow, five people surrounded Liang Ze. The flashlight in the leader's hand was facing him, and the beam of light shone directly on his face.

Liang Ze stood there with his head slightly lowered, a few messy bangs hanging down, and behind him were vigilant and lethal eyes.His shoulders were sideways, with obvious blood marks on his neck, and his left hand was tightly protecting a little girl behind him.

"Don't fucking come with us. Seeing that you are pitiful, you should be lenient. If you don't pay your debts, treat us as vegetarians, right?!"

"I told you I'll give it to you at the end of the month." Liang Ze said in a gloomy tone, gritting his teeth, "Don't push people too hard."

"Fart your mother! At the end of the month, half of the interest is paid, and those few bucks are not even enough for my brother's gas money."

Wu Ke stood in a place where there was no light, and he could hear the conversation clearly.Judging from the volume or the number of people, Liang Ze was no match for those people.But those people seemed to be afraid of something, and surrounded him without taking any action.

"Brother—" the girl behind him grabbed his clothes tightly.

"Crying for mourning, your mother..." The moment the leader raised his hand, Liang Ze raised his right hand and shouted hoarsely, "Back!"

The knife in his hand flashed coldly, forcing everyone to take a step back.Wu Ke also retreated into the shadows, not because of fear, but because he knew that Liang Ze didn't need his help.

After a stalemate for more than ten minutes, the gang smashed the bungalow inside and out, and even carried away the rice hidden in the cupboard.

It wasn't until the sound of the car could no longer be heard that Liang Ze put down the knife in his hand, pulled up his sleeve, wiped his face, and repaired the smashed chair without saying a word.

Footsteps slowly appeared behind him.

Liang Ze suddenly became alert, turned around, and Wu Ke was standing in front of him.

"Knife wounds should be bandaged as soon as possible, otherwise they will become infected."

Liang Ze was obviously surprised by his appearance, but his whole body was still full of hostility, and he lowered his voice after a while: "Stop meddling in other people's business."

Wu Ke was very calm.

In those years of living abroad, he has seen all kinds of violence, such as shooting in the street, openly smoking contraband at school, smashing Chinese supermarkets with a hammer, and so on.

He bowed his head and turned off the music player in his mobile phone, "No one wants to meddle in your business. I'm just here to help the class teacher inform you, remember to be on time next week. You miss too many classes, and the school is considering expulsion."

"If you get fired, you get fired, who cares." Liang Ze smiled sarcastically, "I've been annoyed by this school for a long time, so it's just right to fire me."

Wu Ke felt that he was talking to someone who was immature.He opened his schoolbag and took out the test paper inside: "This is your paper, take it by yourself. Remember to go back and clean the desk before you leave school, so as not to affect the next classmate sitting."

"you--!"

Wu Ke felt that his words were peaceful, but Liang Ze was irritated by his attitude.

"What's so great about you?"

Wu Ke stamped his foot.

"Isn't it just a good reincarnation? What right do you have to look down on me? Let me tell you, don't let me seize the opportunity. One day I will beat you all to the ground."

At this moment, Liang Ze was full of hostility, and he regarded Wu Ke as a target of anger.It seemed that at that moment, Wu Ke saw a kind of wildness that belonged to Liang Ze.

Of course, Liang Ze like this is very annoying.

"The way you seized the opportunity was to drop out?"

"I--"

"If you want to knock someone down, you must first stand up straight."

After finishing speaking, Wu Ke's voice was so low that he seemed to be talking to himself, and added a little mockingly: "People who can't even graduate from high school, where do they come from..."

The ancients always said that if you don't fight, you don't know each other. Liang Ze's self-esteem is as thin as paper, but the most embarrassing scene was watched by Wu Ke, and he gradually became close.

He and his sister slept in the attic of Wu Ke's house that night, because the two of them were talking too loudly, Liang Xiao cried in the room until the dark, thinking that the debt collector had returned.

It wasn't until he brought the brothers and sisters home that Wu Ke began to regret his excessive love, but it was too late.Grandma had already gone to bed, and there were only two packs of instant noodles left, so Wu Ke gave them all.When he came back from the shower, he found that the brother and sister were eating the same bowl, the younger sister was eating noodles, and Liang Ze was drinking soup.

After finishing the drink, Liang Ze wiped his mouth with his hand: "I will wash the dishes."

Wu Ke frowned tightly: "Can you wash it clean?"

"My part-time job is washing dishes in the back kitchen!"

OK, then you can wash it.Wu Ke was studying alone, and his younger sister spread a small blanket on the floor. Before lying down, she didn't forget to open the schoolbag to check whether the remaining instant noodles in the bag were safe.

Wu Ke asked her: "Is your brother hungry?"

The younger sister seemed to be quite shy, she shook her head at him, shrunk down and covered her malnourished face with the quilt, "Brother said keep it."

Then one day, Liang Ze got a bicycle from somewhere, and insisted on taking Wu Ke back after class.Wu Ke sat in the back seat as if he was dead, and after he was almost thrown off for the third time, he simply switched to the front.

He carried Liang Ze.

The path is dimly lit, flying insects are scattered above the head, and the cicadas on the trees are singing tirelessly.

Liang Ze didn't know which tendon was wrong, so he restrainedly grabbed the clothes on both sides of his waist without any other intimate actions.Wu Ke was holding the car with his right hand, and his left hand went around to the back and pulled his hand closer, "Hold my waist tightly."

The next second, the car bumped unexpectedly, and Liang Ze slapped Wu Ke's body sideways, feeling his entire back was dripping with sweat.Trying to suppress his heartbeat, he circled his arms up, deliberately keeping a little distance, "What are you hugging, don't you think it's hot like this?"

Wu Ke said: "You insist on riding a bicycle."

He smiled and changed the subject: "Can you drive, Ake?"

"Ah."

Xu Feng passed through the wet temples, bringing a little soft refreshment.Liang Ze began to fantasize about what it would be like for Wu Ke to buy a sports car when he sat in it. After thinking about it, he felt that it would be a bit pretentious, so he smiled and stopped thinking about it.

After riding for a long time, the small shop was left far behind by them, and the moon in the sky chased the wheels.On the quiet path, Wu Ke suddenly asked, "Liang Ze, do you smell it?"

"Huh?" Liang Ze pressed his ear against the damp cloth, "What."

"It's very fragrant, I don't know what kind of flower it is."

It was the one he smelled when he went to Liang Ze's house for the first time, light and meaningful.

Liang Ze moved his eyes to the side of the road, and it didn't take him much effort to recognize it. He hugged him and answered absent-mindedly:

"That one, that one is called Hehuan."

Acacia can cure insomnia.

During that time, Wu Ke slept very well, and he thought it was due to Hehuan.Because carrying Liang Ze home every day, smelling it every day, he benefited from it.After the two separated, Hehuan only appeared in his memory, so he always suffered from insomnia.