as gentle as you

Chapter 33

After lunch that day, Ling Fei went back in the afternoon.

In the afternoon, Li Li and Ling Gang completed the formalities for grandma's burial, and Ling Fei just came back to see grandma off for the last time.

According to the customs of Lincheng, people who are sick or die accidentally cannot be cremated, which means that the deceased relatives will not suffer from the pain of burning again.

Before sending grandma's body into the cremation furnace, Ling Fei stayed with grandma alone for a while.

Ling Fei looked at her relatives lying on the cold bed, her eyes seemed to be covered with a layer of tulle, she looked up at the ceiling, and when she looked down at her grandma, a line of tears still flowed down her face.

She couldn't help but smiled bitterly, and then talked to her in the usual coquettish tone with her grandma, as if she was still there. "Grandma, let me tell you a little secret. I already have someone I like. Her...name is Wen Yiran, she is a girl, and she...is also my teacher..."

Thinking of Wen Yiran, Ling Fei's tear-filled face immediately filled with an unprecedented warm smile, and the corners of his mouth uncontrollably rose: "She...is a good person, and she is also good to me. A very beautiful, gentle and gentle person.”

"If you are still here, will you support me in pursuing a girl who is much older than me?" She paused, and then said, "But I heard from my mother that you also want me to be happy, right? Then You must support me to be with her! Because I will never fall in love with anyone else except her in my life!"

The room suddenly fell silent.Ling Fei was silent for a while, and then suddenly sighed, the light in his pupils that had been flickering because of excitement just now dimmed suddenly.She shook her head quickly, her throat seemed to be blocked by something, and her nasal cavity was extremely sore: "But... she didn't know that I liked her, and she didn't even notice the existence of this feeling. Grandma, do you know , I am in a predicament now, sometimes I hope she can know my feelings for her, but sometimes... I am afraid that she will know my thoughts, if she knows, scare her away or she will never What do you do if you hate me..."

"If you want me to be happy, please help me secretly... When we are really together, I will definitely bring her to see you..."

……

After her grandma's body was cremated, Ling Fei never shed a single tear during the mechanical burial procedure, and remained silent with a sad expression.

School will start again soon.Ling Fei came here after asking for two days off because of family matters.

The past few days are like a dream. In the dream, I am like Prometheus tied to the Caucasus Mountain, enduring the pain of eagles pecking at my liver, but unable to move.However, now that she woke up from the dream, she still couldn't return to the person she was before the dream...

Grandma is gone.This is the first time Ling Fei has tasted the feeling of losing a loved one as long as she can remember.At midnight, in the dead of night, I fell into a nightmare like reincarnation, where my grandma's gentle smile and loving words to me were everywhere.Whenever I wake up at night, I can't help covering my face and crying.

"Xiao Fei, are you okay?" Qi Yuanyuan asked worriedly during the class break.

Since Ling Fei came here this morning, she hasn't spoken much, let alone smiled, calmly like a robot with an expressionless face.For the teacher's lectures, she often listens and often does not listen. When she is not listening, she lies on the table, writing and drawing on the paper with a pen, not knowing what she is thinking.

Of course Ling Fei knew that her intention was to care about herself, so her eyebrows were slightly bent down, which was the biggest smile she showed: "I'm fine, you don't have to worry."

In the past few days, Ling Fei's state has finally adjusted. She can listen to the lectures in class, and she can answer the teacher's questions, except that she is still serious.In response to this problem, Qi Yuanyuan is also trying to make her laugh, basically telling her a joke every day.

"Xiao Fei, do you know Yang Mi?"

Ling Fei lowered her head and was doing the "five three" that Wen Yiran gave her before. Hearing Qi Yuanyuan's tone, she knew that she was going to tell herself a joke again, so she immediately said perfunctorily, "I don't know."

Thinking about this person who only knows Wen Yiran all day long or is immersed in her own world, it's normal that she doesn't know.But in order to attract her attention, Qi Yuanyuan deliberately widened her eyes, and pretended to be surprised: "Yang Mi, you don't even know? She is the female star who became popular in "Gong" last year. Hey, then you know her name is How did you get here?"

Ling Fei shook her head numbly, and continued to work on the question: "I don't know."

"Because her parents are both surnamed Yang, she was named Yang Mi after she was born, which means the third power of Yang. I almost died laughing when I first found out, her parents named her so casually hahaha..."

Hearing the people around her laughing out of breath, Ling Fei closed her eyes as if resigned to her fate, then put down her pen, turned her head and said to her coldly, "Can you smile a little bit higher?" Wan got up and walked straight out of the classroom.

Qi Yuanyuan looked at her back and sighed, alas, failed again!

At this time, it was the big break of the second class, and there were many students coming and going outside the classroom corridor.Ling Fei felt that it was too noisy, so she walked to the west end of the corridor.

The autumn wind was rustling, and the exposed warm skin made people feel chilly. Ling Fei couldn't help tightening her clothes.

Looking up at the sky, it was cloudy as expected.Strange to say, since this month entered November, it has been raining continuously at low temperature, as if it is continuously moistening Ling Fei's troubled heart.

Sighing, she looked into the distance again.The high-rise buildings and mansions in the distance, the faintly visible green vegetation buried in the mist, and the faint sound of cars and the noise of the crowd are all traces of the operation of society and people's lives.And she, as one of thousands of people, is so ethereal and insignificant. Who would really care and care about what happened to her...

Open up and promise yourself in the morning and evening.No one understands the pain.

Oh, why did you suddenly think of these useless things?

Ling Fei buttoned up her jacket and was about to go back to the classroom when Qi Yuanyuan's voice sounded behind her: "I knew you would be here," she walked to her side, put her hands on the fence, and looked into the distance "What are you looking at?"

"It's nothing. It's a bit cold outside, or we..."

Ling Fei's voice suddenly stopped.

"What's wrong? Why didn't you talk?"

Qi Yuanyuan saw that Ling Fei's peaceful expression sank in the next moment as if the face of a Sichuan opera changed, her handsome eyebrows were tightly frowned, and her two black pupils stuck to the scene in her line of sight like glue.

Curiously, she followed Ling Fei's line of sight and looked downstairs. She saw Wen Yiran walking side by side with another man. They didn't know what they were talking about, but it made Wen Yiran smile. They also laughed, and then walked into the teaching building of their class together.

Although they were on the fifth floor, they could be vaguely identified—the man was Liu Jian, the head teacher of Class One.Although Wen Yiran and Liu Jian did not touch each other so intimately, if they kept walking so close, it would be enough to make people imagine.

Qi Yuanyuan immediately realized that Ling Fei was jealous.She has been in a trance for several days because of her grandma's affairs, and she finally got better today, so don't worry about it again.So he deliberately said: "That little Fei, the next class happens to be English class, I suddenly remembered that I have a very important grammar question and I want to ask you, let's go back to the classroom and say..." He was about to drag her away.

Ling Fei withdrew her gaze and let go of her hand all of a sudden.

She turned her head to look at Qi Yuanyuan, her eyes were full of sadness and accompanied by faint anger.She opened her lips, as if to say something, but finally walked back to the classroom sideways.

As soon as Ling Fei entered the classroom, she sat down with a gloomy face. The scene of Wen Yiran talking and laughing with other men just now was always in her mind, which choked her heart like a sharp thorn, causing great pain.The more she thought about it, the angrier she became, she clenched her fists subconsciously, without even realizing that her nails were embedded in her flesh.

It was only a month ago that I told myself that I was single... I found a boyfriend so soon... Hehe, maybe I have always had a boyfriend and I didn't tell myself the truth?

"...Okay, that's it for this class, get out of class is over!" Miss Cheng walked to the door of the classroom, then turned her head and said, "Ling Fei, come with me to hug the English homework that was handed in yesterday."

"Oh."

Ling Fei followed Miss Cheng mechanically with her head down.

She didn't really listen to this English class at all.Needless to say the reason.

"Mr. Wen, where are you going?"

"Oh, I'm going to the Political and Education Office to find the grade director. Has Mr. Cheng just finished class?"

"That's right. Then go and do your work. I'll take Ling Fei to do my homework."

"Ok."

The conversation between Miss Cheng and Wen Yiran suddenly reached Ling Fei's ears.She looked up, just in time to meet Wen Yiran's eyes.

If it had been left behind, Ling Fei would have immediately faced her with an incomparably bright smile, and added a warm "Hello, Teacher Wen".

But at this moment, Ling Fei couldn't help but look at the radiant light in her eyes.

So the next second she looked at her, she quickly shifted her gaze and silently looked away.

And, he didn't say a word to her.

Wen Yiran, who continued to walk forward after greeting Miss Cheng, suddenly felt strange.What happened to Ling Fei?I remember that she usually greeted me warmly.

She changed her mind again, oh, maybe she hasn't come out of the sadness yet.After all, she has been very close to her grandma since she was a child... Sigh, it's a pity...

The author has something to say:

I clearly remember that I didn’t watch any TV dramas when I was in high school, but when I wrote this chapter, I realized that the first one I watched was "Palace", but I was often abused by Mary Su Guqi.Now I should be past the age of watching ancient puppets, and I have no desire to watch those ancient costume dramas, so that I have not watched a single costume from last year to this year.I really feel old, alas T_T