Agreed, let's not chase her!

Chapter 42 Let's Buy Some Clothes

There are eight sufferings in life, the eight sufferings, that is, the suffering of birth, the suffering of old age, the suffering of illness, the suffering of death, the suffering of meeting hatred and hatred, the suffering of parting from love, the suffering of not getting what one wants, and the suffering of the five aggregates of grasping.

Birth, old age, sickness and death are the laws of nature, and the cycle of karma. I never thought of being immortal like the ancient emperors. I just want to spend these life and death with the person I love. It was an ordinary and blissful journey.

It's a pity that the illness is merciless, you can't ask for it, and you can't let go of that suffering, so the more you chase, the more you suffer.

I thought that losing and longing were the most painful things in life, but I didn't expect that life and death are the most painful things in life.In less than a third of my life, the person who agreed to accompany me to go, she lied to me, she was not waiting for me at all, and she did not want to go with me.

I am 28 years old, and she is about to be 31 years old. Obviously, I am only three years away from her, three years, I only missed her three years, but now these three years are like a lifetime to me, So luxurious.

I always maintain a numb state of mind about her various complications, and try hard to force myself that she is fine, that it will be fine, and everything will be fine, hypnotizing myself.So I seemed to really believe it. On my 28th birthday, my parents asked me to take him back to have a meal. While giving me a birthday, I also wanted to have a good relationship with Ayu, after all, they couldn’t live. How soon will they be grandparents, and they still want to take care of their grandchildren.

I explained the situation to the doctor to Ayu, and stayed at home for a few days. In fact, I was worried too much during the few days in the hospital. How could pregnant women get injections and medicine? I let her stay in the hospital, but I wanted peace of mind. Forget it, the doctor didn't explain much to me. It can be said that he didn't say anything to me. He just nodded and said: "Well, pay attention when you go home."

Pay attention to what?I didn't ask him.

Then I drove her back. Ayu's reaction to me taking her to see my mother has always been neutral. Thinking of how tense the relationship between her and my mother was, I was still a little worried. She in the passenger seat said, "Are you sure you want to go? Let's just go back and buy a cake by ourselves. Don't force yourself."

Ayu knew it was my birthday early in the morning, and I casually mentioned my parents' desire for us to go back, but she actually agreed, saying that she would build a good relationship with my parents.

My parents don't know about Ayu's situation, but it doesn't mean I can hide it from them well, even if I want to hide it, Ayu won't let me hide it.

My birthday is very small, I don't like such a big and exaggerated scene, I naturally know what kind of reputation I have in the mall, and the ones invited must be some smiling foxes, the hypocritical posture makes me sick, There are not many people who sincerely come to bless them, why should I please those who are not happy.Besides, there are so many people, there will be a smell when crowded together, I am afraid that Ayu will feel uncomfortable.

As for Wang Jing?Oh, she won't come, she may want to kill me now, I won't be so stupid as to hit her muzzle and invite her.

My mother never mentioned the incident during the Chinese New Year. She greeted us warmly as soon as Ayu and I arrived home, and her attitude towards Ayu made a 180-degree turn.In fact, my mother loves me very much. Xu's face is really not very important to her. She is just afraid that the rumors outside will hurt me.My dad didn't have much reaction to the fact that I was with Ayu early in the morning. Grandpa was out of the province because he received a funeral invitation from his comrade-in-arms when he was young, so he couldn't come back in time to accompany us. In the outer city.

The meals on the table are all cooked by my mother and Zhang’s mother. There are many soups for big supplements, such as pork rib soup, black chicken soup with wolfberry and red dates, and yam soup. My mother must have put her heart into it.

My mother said: "Xiao Lu, it was my mother who made a mistake during the Chinese New Year, no, no, the model matter is also her own decision, and she didn't mean to ask you. We have already bought out your fashion magazine from Monica. , will not be circulated in the market. Also, about your parents, I am sorry..."

After all, my mother is a highly educated person with high quality and wide knowledge. In her circle, it is not that there are no homosexuals who openly come out and marry.She knew that she was wrong, but at that moment she couldn't bear to apologize. Now that it's been so long, my mother can finally get along with Ayu calmly.

Ayu was obviously a little embarrassed. Looking at the table full of dishes, besides not expecting my mother to cook, she was also surprised by her attitude. As soon as we came, my mother put down the things in her hand and wiped them on the apron. Wipe your hands, lead Ayu to sit on the sofa, move carefully, then sit on the sofa and ask about your health, explaining a lot of things to pay attention to during pregnancy, but ignore my daughter here Yes, only Mama Zhang greeted me.

My mother served Ayu soup, and Ayu blushed with embarrassment, and said repeatedly: "Thank you, auntie, I can do it myself..."

"You child, why do you still call me auntie? You are married to our family Nannan. You have Nannan's child, why do you still call me auntie? See you, call me mother."

Mom, for Ayu, this is a far and close word. She looked at my mother blankly and said, "Can I? Can I call you, Mom?"

My mother may have asked someone to check her life in Zhucheng for six years, maybe my mother knows more than me, but I still can't figure out why her attitude towards Ayu has changed so much.

It’s just that the way Ayu and my mother get along with each other really moved me. I haven’t seen her smile so happily for a long time. These days she is depressed, and she forced herself to smile at me when she saw me.

After dinner, Ayu fell asleep, and my mother asked me to go to her study to tell me something.

When I came, my dad was there too.The atmosphere between the two was weird, they called me, but they didn't speak for a long time, they didn't tell me to go, and it was hard for me to go out.

"Nan Nan, we know about Lu Yu." My mother said.

I nodded in agreement.

"Is there really no way to treat it?" My dad asked.

I still nodded.

My mother stood up, pulled me to sit next to her, and said, "Lu Yu is a strong-willed child, and she will survive."

I gave her a wry smile.

"Let's go out with her tomorrow. It will be very depressing to be depressed all the time. The child will be born in four months. It's time for you to buy some child-rearing necessities for the child, as well as clothes and so on. Mom will meet with her tomorrow. Your father is planning to visit an old professor in the United States to see if he will come to China to show Lu."

"Ah."

My dad was hesitant to talk, but he didn't say anything in the end. He sat and listened to my mother's rambling words, and my mother began to tell me how to take care of the child again.

My mother said that I was impatient, extremely impatient, harsh, rough-tempered, and not caring about anything except for a little patience with Ayu.He also said how ignorant I was when I was a child, I was self-willed and loved to be stubborn, I often made myself cry, and I also loved to be angry with myself, and when I was angry, I could shut myself up for three days and three nights without eating a mouthful, saying yes To punish myself.Although the brain is clever, the failure is due to the character, dead brain.

It is said that raising children can't be like this, I always have to change it.

Am I like this?How come I don’t have any awareness. If you want to talk about my temper, I think I am very calm. I have laid a solid foundation in W. I treat employees with clear rewards and punishments. I never procrastinate in doing things. In the eyes of parents, do you play at home...

I said okay, I'll change everything, change everything, can you let me go back?

My mother taught me to be impatient again...

The next day when Ayu woke up, I took her to wash up and had breakfast, and then offered to take her to a big shopping mall to buy some necessities for the child. Ayu was obviously surprised for a long time, and said: "Would you like Have you accepted the child?"

"Why don't you accept it, this is my child, my own." I said it as a matter of course.

"You're finally back to normal."

"........."

When did I become abnormal?I glared at her, took her arm and said, "Then what do I look like when I am normal? What do I look like when I am not normal?"

"When you are normal, you seem to have endless energy. You toss me desperately, and the thoughts in your mind change every day. When you are not normal, you look like a dead face. Who cares? They are all bitter and bitter, not to mention the disgusting expression on their faces, crying and laughing for a while, it can scare me to death."

"........."

After all, I am a person with good looks and status, so why was she calling me so wretched?

"Ah, Ayu, your mouth is really cheap."

"Not as cheap as you."

Very good, it left me speechless again.

I stopped talking to her in a dull mood, pulled her to the baby clothes and stopped, picked up a set of baby girl clothes and said: "I don't know if it's a boy or a girl, but babies are born with their heads bald for a long time. , regardless of gender, let’s just buy a few sets of men’s and women’s clothes, and then we’ll go buy some diapers and milk powder later.”

"Xu Wannan, if your child knows that you think like this, he will definitely not like you when he grows up!"

"I'm not wrong, even if it's a girl, she has no hair, so it won't matter if she wears men's clothes?"

"........."

When I went back, Ayu seemed in a good mood, looked at me with glowing eyes, and said nastyly: "Xu Wannan, I think marrying you is the best thing I've ever done in my life. "

I turned to look at her, with a smile on the corner of my mouth, and said, "How can I see that?"

"I haven't called the word mother for six years. You gave me a child, you gave me a parent, and you, you gave me a home." Her face showed the vicissitudes of the past, as if Thinking of the past, she no longer has the repulsion and disgust of the hard life at that time.

She is no longer fierce. This is my summary of her disappearance for six years. In many things, she is still as self-willed as before. She still gets angry when dealing with this uncomfortable society, but most of the time she compromises. up.

Many things are helpless.

There was a big bag of our shopping on the back seat of the car, and I touched her belly, my own baby through her, and quietly kissed in the car.

Life is very simple. I got married, had a baby, and then I made money, and she took care of the baby at home. Sometimes she felt bored at home, so she ran out and threw the baby to me, and then she ran away.

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