After wearing a paranoid bamboo horse of abusive male protagonists

Chapter 28

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He didn't want to see Chenchen's disgusted eyes.

Song Qingshi has been a little absent-minded recently. Ever since Ye Xiaonan told him the difference between homosexuality and heterosexuality last time, it is difficult for him not to think about a question: Is Chenchen homosexual or heterosexual?

But it’s not easy to ask this question directly. If you ask, it will definitely arouse Chenchen’s suspicion. Chenchen will think why he asked this question, and then wonder whether he is gay. After all, ordinary people don’t ask such questions .

And Chenchen himself doesn't necessarily know whether he is gay or straight, after all, if he didn't lie to himself, he probably doesn't have anyone he likes yet.

How can I know whether Chenchen is gay or straight?

upset.

While Song Qingshi was upset, he unconsciously used a pen to scribble and draw on the draft pad. At this moment, a strange voice suddenly came from the front desk: "Song Qingshi, I have a question to ask you."

Song Qingshi looked up and saw that the person sitting at the table in front of him was not Huang Tingting, but another girl, and there was a petite girl with ponytail standing behind her.

Song Qingshi paused for a few seconds, remembering their names, Xia Siyu and Jiang Zixuan, he asked the girl in front of him, "What's the problem?"

Xia Siyu said: "Are you and your brother free this Saturday? Zixuan, I and a few other classmates are going to go climbing together this Saturday. Do you want to come together?"

While she was talking, Jiang Zixuan behind her tugged at her sleeves, she lowered her head, her face was flushed, as if she was a little embarrassed.

Song Qingshi remembered that last time Huang Tingting said that Jiang Zixuan was also among the girls who liked Chenchen. They thought they wanted to invite Chenchen but were afraid of being rejected, so they tried to inquire about news from him.

Song Qingshi smiled at them, but the smile didn't reach his eyes. He said softly, "I have to ask Chenchen before I can answer this."

Xia Siyu turned her head and glanced at Jiang Zixuan, the two exchanged glances, Xia Siyu said again: "Just say you're coming, you and your brother have such a good relationship, won't your brother come with you as soon as you come?"

Song Qingshi tried his best to restrain his expression that he couldn't help but want to cool down. He reluctantly pulled the corners of his mouth and said, "I will help you to ask."

Xia Siyu leaned over and said in a more emphatic tone: "You must ask for us, I am optimistic about you."

"Uh..." After school, when the two went home together, Song Qingshi remembered Xia Siyu and Jiang Zixuan asking him to help him, and asked Lu Yanchen, "Chenchen, do you have any plans for the weekend?"

Lu Yanchen said "Huh?" and said, "No, do you have any arrangements?"

Song Qingshi: "I want to go to the city library on weekends."

Lu Yanchen: "Well, then I will accompany you."

Song Qingshi: "Good."

The next day, Xia Siyu and Jiang Zixuan came again and asked Song Qingshi what Lu Yanchen said. Song Qingshi looked at them apologetically and said, "I asked, and Chenchen said that he is not free on weekends and is going to the city library."

Jiang Zixuan looked disappointed, while Xia Siyu said "ah", shrugged and said, "Well, if you don't come, don't come..."

Song Qingshi watched them leave with heavy eyes.

……

On the weekend, Lu Yanchen and Song Qingshi came to the city library together. Lu Yanchen asked Song Qingshi what book he wanted to read, and Song Qingshi said: "I haven't thought about it yet, let's read it first."

"Ah."

The two looked along the bookshelves. There were so many books in the library that they were dazzled. Just as they passed the bookshelves starting with the letter "T", Song Qingshi's gaze inadvertently glanced at a book "Gay Subculture". He paused for a moment and lingered on the book for a few seconds.

Lu Yanchen noticed that he paused and kept staring at one place, thinking that he had found the book he wanted to read but couldn't reach it, so he said, "Brother, which book do you want to read, do you want me to get it for you?"

Song Qingshi panicked, he turned slightly sideways, blocked the "Gay Subculture" with the back of his head, and said with some guilt: "No, I haven't found it yet, it's not here."

Lu Yanchen gave him a strange look, thinking that he was always acting weird recently, but seeing that he didn't really want to talk, he didn't say anything, so he said, "Okay."

Finally, Song Qingshi took a copy of "Crime and Punishment" to read.

Although Lu Yanchen was fooled, Song Qingshi was still thinking about the book "Gay Subculture".

Ever since he knew that he was gay, he couldn't help but want to know more about it, but Chen Chen couldn't let Chenchen know about it.

So on the next weekend, Lu Yanchen asked Song Qingshi what his plans were for this week. Song Qingshi said that he still wanted to go to the library, and Lu Yanchen said, "Well, I'll go with you."

But he didn't want to be rejected by Song Qingshi, he looked at him with some shame, and said, "I want to go alone this time."

Lu Yanchen gave him a surprised look, and said, "What's the matter, I can't go?"

Song Qingshi turned his head, his face blushed because he didn't know how to explain, and he gave a low "um".

Although he knew that what he did was very strange and would make Chen Chen suspicious, but he really didn't know how to avoid Chen Chen and secretly check the information.

After all, he and Chenchen have been inseparable since childhood. No matter what he does, Chenchen will be the first to notice.

The two stood in their common room, Lu Yanchen stood by the bed, Song Qingshi stood at the door, the two looked at each other, followed by a few seconds of silence, the atmosphere was a bit awkward.

In the end, Lu Yanchen said "Oh" and said in a low voice, "Be careful on the road."

Song Qingshi went out alone.

……

After Song Qingshi went out alone, Lu Yanchen stayed in the room alone. He found a book from the bookcase, lay on the bed and flipped through it, but he couldn't read it.

All I can think about is Song Qingshi.

Since they met, no matter where they go, they are together, going to and from school together, and hanging out together.

But today, Song Qingshi told him that it was the first time that he wanted to go out alone. He couldn't say what kind of feeling he felt, but he felt astringent in his heart. It should be the same as those parents who watched their children grow up but had to let go.

Sooner or later there will be such a day, Lu Yanchen comforted himself.

Thinking about it carefully, the Song and Qing Dynasties were 14 years old. In fact, [-] years old is not too young. It is the time of the second year of middle school and rebellion.

Could it be that the Song and Qing Dynasties have reached the rebellious period?

In fact, from his appearance alone, you can't tell at all that Song Qingshi always looks obedient and soft.

But rebellion can't be seen from the outside. Some people's rebellion is more open and flamboyant, while some people's rebellion is more restrained and reserved.

Song and Qing dynasties should belong to the latter category.

Although he was somewhat unwilling, he had to admit that everyone's growth is a process of moving towards independence. Brothers will part ways one day, and he and Song Qingshi will also go to a bifurcation point one day. We were inseparable as a child.

When it's time to let go, you have to let go.

Right now, he is just going to the city library alone. After all, he is already fourteen, and he should have his own independent space. Who hasn't ordered privacy?

He collected himself and continued to flip through the book.

But after turning a few pages, he couldn't help but think about Song Qingshi, how is he doing outside alone now? It takes about half an hour to take the bus from home to the city library, and he has to change buses. There are so many people on the bus , Can he grab a seat? If he can't, won't he have to stand for more than half an hour, can his body take it?

Did he pay attention to the traffic lights on the road? What should he do in case of a car accident?What if his wallet is stolen on the bus and he has no money to return?

……

The more Lu Yanchen thought about it, the more uneasy he became. At this time, they didn't have a mobile phone, and if something happened, they couldn't get in touch. His heart was fluttering in his wild thoughts, and he couldn't calm down at all.

Lu Yanchen tossed and turned on the bed, sat up after a while, couldn't help pacing up and down in the room, and after a while, he sat on the bed again, crossing his arms and thinking, stop thinking about it, Song Qingshi is 14 years old anyway No, it's not that easy to have an accident, and it's not a three-year-old child...

But after a while, he couldn't help but think, Song Qing has never gone out alone at such an age, what should he do if something happens...

He started pacing again, and finally even had the urge to open the door of his house and run to the city library to find Song Qingshi.

But before he went out, he was forced down by himself, no, no, no, he should believe in Song Qingshi, believe that he can do it...

In such repeated pulling and worrying, Lu Yanchen finally decided that he must buy two mobile phones!

……

Lu Yanchen was worried there for a whole day. In fact, nothing happened in the Song and Qing Dynasties, and he arrived at the city library smoothly. He found the book "Gay Subculture" that he had read last time.

In addition, he also found several other books about homosexuality, such as "Homosexuality in China", "Same Sex/Love" and so on...

After reading the book for a day, Song Qingshi finally had a deeper understanding of his "homosexual" identity. Homosexuality is not abnormal. Except for the difference in sexual orientation, it is no different from normal people in other aspects. People are relieved.

But when he was returning the book, an uncle standing behind him saw that the books he read were all related to homosexuality, and cast him a weird look, which included many emotions, such as disgust, disgust, and disdain , as if looking at a different kind, Song Qingshi was stunned in place.

……

At around six o'clock in the afternoon, Song Qingshi finally returned home.

Lu Yanchen, who had been worried for a whole day, finally breathed a sigh of relief when he saw him, and couldn't help asking him what happened outside today. Every time he asked Song Qingshi, he would answer one sentence, and the answer was concise and indifferent, not even a single word. Kendo said that Lu Yanchen finally realized that he was in a bad mood, and asked, "What happened today, why are you so unhappy?"

Song Qingshi glanced at him and said in a low voice, "It's nothing."

"It's nothing, why are you so unhappy?" He wanted to tease him, put his hands in front of him, and bent down to look at his face.

In this posture, the bodies of the two are very close, especially the faces. Song Qingshi's entire angle of view is occupied by Lu Yanchen.

"Huh?" Lu Yanchen gave a soft "huh" with a raised tone, as if he was teasing a kitten.

However, Song Qingshi's heartbeat accelerated uncontrollably, his body temperature rose rapidly, and his fair and tender face turned red visibly.

The phrase "What's your view on homosexuality?" was just kept in his mouth, he didn't want to see Chen Chen's disgusted eyes.

The author says:

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