After the game emperor awakens

Chapter 8

The weather is the most elusive thing.The sky was still clear just now, but in an instant it was covered with dark clouds, followed by pattering rain, which soon turned into a torrential downpour, which intensified and coincided with the cry from forbearance to mourning in the cold palace, as if the heavens were falling with the beauty Weep with tears.

The leaves in the courtyard were rustled by the wind, the rain hit the begonias, and the petals fell from the branches and returned to the dust.

The cold rain knocks on the window, there are raindrops outside and tears inside.Xie Chongjin hugged and coaxed, grabbed the white wrist and kissed the fingertips, all the way to the lips, like licking the claws of a wounded beast.

The figures overlapped on the couch, the satin-like black hair was spread out in a mess, and the fingers of two slender and beautiful hands were tightly intertwined.Lu Xuechao's eyes were moist and sparkling, she looked drunk, her brows were slightly frowned, her snowy skin was stained with a thin layer of rouge, more beautiful and pitiful than the begonias scattered in the mud, she was hugged in her arms, only A white ankle was exposed.

The candle shadows turned red, Xie Chongjin felt that the soft couch was too small, picked up the person halfway, bypassed the mica screen, opened the bead curtain, and gently placed it in the soft smoke tent.The bed is made of jade, warm in winter and cool in summer, spacious and comfortable, and the brocade quilt is soft, all of which are tributes.It was Xie Chongjin who personally ordered someone to tailor it for Lu Xuechao, just because he was afraid that he would not feel comfortable sleeping in the cold palace.

It's not just the bed, every brick, every tile, every plant and every tree in this cold palace is all bought by Xie Chongjin, so that the desolate and desolate scene can be transformed into a spring-like appearance all the year round.Xie Chongjin originally wanted to remove the plaque with the word "Lenggong" and change it to Chongxue Palace, but unfortunately to no avail - this palace is as if it is doomed, it can only be called Lenggong, and he cannot issue such an order.

But now, apart from the plaque, the Leng Palace has no appearance of the Leng Palace from top to bottom.

They lingered to death in the tent.

Xie Chongjin and Lu Xuechao studied together when they were young, and they read Li Yu's "Langtaosha Ling". Both of them are geniuses with a photographic memory.

The rain is gurgling outside the curtain, and the spring is waning.Luo Qu was intolerant to the cold of the fifth month.I don't know if I am a guest in my dream, and I am greedy for a while.

Don't lean on a railing alone, there is no limit to the country.Separation is easier than reunion.Flowing water, falling flowers, spring is gone, heaven and earth.

It's just that at that time, the country was prosperous and the people were safe, the prosperity was like a brocade, the two teenagers who were rich and noble, and frivolous and unruly, only read a few sentences with emotion, and couldn't really understand the sad state of mind of the subjugated king, and didn't think that Chang Li would fall into such a situation .

From then on, life after life, there will be no Lu Xuechao next to the emperor's couch.The mandarin duck tiles are cold and frosty, and the emerald quilt is cold, who shares it?Thinking day by day, dreaming at night, Xie Chongjin misses Lu Xuechao day by day, and can only meet him every night in his dreams.He understood that "Luo Qun can't bear the cold at five o'clock. In the dream, he didn't know that he was a guest, and he was greedy all day long."After Lu Xuechao died unexpectedly, Xie Chongjin sat alone on the throne and became a puppet emperor until Changli's country was broken, and when he walked up the high city wall alone to die for the country, he watched the mountains and rivers shattered, the wolf smoke rose everywhere, the old people melted away early, and the old country has become a foreign land , I also understand "Don't lean on a railing alone, there is no limit to the country. Sometimes it is easy to see, but sometimes it is difficult."

When you first hear it, you don't know what the song is about, but after listening to it again, you are already in the song.

Fortunately, this time it is not a dream of greed.

It was probably because she hadn't had sex for a long time, Lu Xuechao's reaction was jerky, and her demeanor was enthusiastic.Xie Chongjin remembered that Lu Xuechao was very shy in bed, always closing his eyes and not daring to look at him.When they first got married, His Royal Highness the Crown Prince who liked to tease his family always liked to tease him: "Qingshu, open your eyes and look at me, to see who is loving you?"

The crown prince blushed and cursed in a low voice: "You are a beast in clothes, you are in vain for a gentleman."

The prince laughed: "Why do you need to be a gentleman to your own princess, you must be a beast, you don't even need clothes."

The princess held back for a while: "...you should put on some clothes."

The prince laughed and fell on the princess.

Now there is no need for Xie Chongjin to tease, Lu Xuechao opened her eyes to look at him, quietly watching his face against the candlelight, reluctant to blink.Sometimes comfortable or uncomfortable, forced to cry, and staring at him with red eyes, refusing to look away.

Xie Chongjin laughed hoarsely: "Qingshu looks at me like this, is it because I haven't seen it for a long time? I don't look good now, I must be very haggard and lack of energy, but after Qingshu grows up, I don't dare to look at it gone."

Lu Xue looked at him and said in a slow voice: "Since we parted, we have met each other. A few times, our souls and dreams are the same as yours. Tonight, I have left a photo of the silver lamp, and I am afraid that the reunion will be a dream."

Xie Chongjin felt sour, and hugged Lu Xuechao even tighter.

He smiled lowly: "Then let you see enough."

The sound of rain outside the window gradually subsided, and the clouds in the tent collected the rain.Xie Chongjin embraced Lu Xuechao from behind, and refused to let go no matter what, it was even more inseparable than when they first got married.

A small farewell is better than a newlywed, not to mention their separation, I don't know how many lives they have been apart, no amount of intimacy can be enough.

After venting a lot, the two finally calmed down, and finally thought about talking about business.

"I have wronged you for the past three years." Xie Chongjin asked, "How did you suffer? Did the palace servants neglect you?"

Because he was restrained by others, he was unable to meet Lu Xuechao in person, so he could only tell the palace servants not to neglect the Empress Dowager, but still treat him with the same respect and service as the Empress, and the food and clothing should be used according to the Empress's rules.Even because of the guilt in his heart, he didn't keep all the good things for himself to enjoy, and sent them to the cold palace immediately.

If you want to ask who in the palace has the most nourishing life, it is not the emperor, nor the concubine Liu Gui who is generally recognized as the most favored, but the abandoned queen in the cold palace.

But even though the instructions are comprehensive, Xie Chongjin can't see it with his own eyes, and he is always worried about whether the people below will be obedient and disobedient, whether they will enrich their own pockets, and worry about how Lu Xuechao is doing well every day.

"This cold palace is almost turned into a fairyland by you, what else can I suffer?" Lu Xuechao lazily leaned against Xie Chongjin, and said calmly, "There is nothing wrong except not being able to see you."

One sentence also called Xie Chongjin's heart piercing like a knife: "Qingshu..."

"Don't blame yourself." Lu Xuechao said, "I know you can't help yourself, and I never blamed you."

Xie Chongjin never concealed his preference for Lu Xuechao—or his exclusive love, and he acted blatantly.

After Xie Chongjin was controlled, he was thrown into the cold palace with his front foot, and then he led the construction team to renovate the cold palace from beginning to end. It was no worse than the Chongxue Palace where he lived before. harsh treatment.In the past world, if it was Lin Chanzhi who was manipulated, and Lin Chanzhi framed him, Xie Chongjin was affected by force majeure and had to punish him. Dian grounded him together, apologizing and comforting him in various ways.Later, it was probably because Lin Chanzhi, who was cruel, jealous and murderous, would attack him, so he alienated him and carefully protected him.

Their world is bound by invisible rules. They are all caged birds wearing shackles, and they cannot love whoever they want to love as they like.But within the rules, Xie Chongjin is loving him to the greatest extent.

Lu Xuechao knew it all.

Xie Chongjin asked, "How do you know I'm not me?"

"Do you even need to ask?" Lu Xue said, "I don't believe that I have such bad eyesight. I have misunderstood people since I was a child, and I fell in love with a lucky person. Besides, even if you don't like me, you won't even forget about the people of your country. Afterwards, he did such absurd things as quitting court. That is definitely not the Xie Huaiyun I know, nor is it His Highness the Crown Prince who has great ambitions at a young age."

Xie Chongjin grabbed his hand and rested his chin on his shoulder: "I won't dislike you, even if I don't."

Lu Xuechao looked down at the hands they held together: "I'm done answering, it's up to you. How did you get controlled and how did you regain your freedom?"

He has worked so hard for so many lives, but he has not been able to find a way to get Xie Chongjin out of control other than death. What happened in this life?

Xie Chongjin started from writing the imperial edict for the abolition of the emperor when he wanted to amnesty the world, and then he described all the things that were out of control after he ascended the throne, in detail, as if he was doing a report.This is what he tried desperately to tell Lu Xuechao, but he couldn't say it because of the restriction. It was hard for the restriction to disappear, so he had to say it all at once.

During the report, Xie Chongjin emphasized that he didn't touch any of those concubines, not even any of them.

This surprised Lu Xuechao.

He knew that Xie Chongjin was involuntary, and that wandering around the harem all day meant being a manipulator, and he had already accepted the fact that Xie Chongjin had skin-to-skin relationships with many people.

Lu Xuechao was naturally unhappy.Who would want the lover's body to contaminate other people, not to mention that it was not Xie Chongjin's will, what a painful and humiliating Xie Chongjin.

In the past world, the controller would also manipulate Xie Chongjin to favor Lu Xuechao, regardless of time and occasion.Sometimes Xie Chongjin would go to court early and want to have sex with Lu Xuechao in the daytime, but Lu Xuechao didn't want it in her heart, and Xie Chongjin actually didn't want to either.But seeing Xie Chongjin's expression of pain and unbearable pain, as if he was resisting the medicine and couldn't let it out, he softly accompanied him to mess around.

He knew that Huaiyun didn't want him, but he could solve it, so why make Huaiyun feel uncomfortable.

Therefore, even if Xie Chongjin favors other people, Lu Xuechao will only hate the manipulator.Xie Chongjin is being controlled, he understands.

He will make himself understand.

But Xie Chongjin said that he had never touched any of them.

"Can you resist control at that time?"

"Yes, the manipulator can at most choose someone for my bed, and I can't even force me to do it myself. At that time, it felt like an aphrodisiac. It was uncomfortable to bear it, but it would not kill me if I could bear it. I'll die if I endure it, so I'll die too, it's meaningless to live involuntarily, anyway, I don't touch anyone other than you." Xie Chongjin said this firmly, gnashing his teeth, "The manipulator acts like he has never seen a man before. Flip, I take Chinese medicine every day, I really can't bear it, of course I will not let others get close, at most I want your face to solve it on its own, and barely get through... It's hard to sleep like this every night, so my eyes are black and black, and I still have to... Being regarded as excessive indulgence, there is nowhere to complain."

Xie Chongjin felt aggrieved as he spoke: "Qing Shu, it was the cloud and rain just now, but for the first time in three years, I couldn't hold back."

He didn't speak in a heavy tone when he said this.This accusation seems to be just a small grievance, and she is eager to find her sweetheart to act like a baby, but the matter itself is not a big deal.

Lu Xuechao knew that it was not easy for him.

In the past three years, Xie Chongjin's temperament has changed drastically. In addition to the long and painful dream last night, he is already gloomy and cold, full of hostility, and he can no longer change back to the proud and reckless boy he was before.

Xie Chongjin didn't want to show this side in front of Lu Xuechao, didn't want to scare Lu Xuechao, and didn't want to make Lu Xuechao feel uncomfortable.He hoped that in front of Lu Xuechao, he would always be that bright, arrogant, youthful elder brother who seemed to have never suffered any pain.

But how could this be hidden from Lu Xuechao.

Lu Xuechao took the pulse for him, and frowned: "No wonder your complexion doesn't look like a sign of kidney deficiency and yin deficiency, but it's a long-term stagnation in the heart and lack of sleep."

He was happy that Xie Chongjin didn't touch anyone else, but he couldn't be happy when he thought of the torment Xie Chongjin had endured for this.

In those years, Huai Yun should have never had a good night's sleep.

Xie Chongjin was surprised: "When did you know medicine?"

He and Lu Xuechao grew up together, so why didn't he know that Lu Xuechao understood this.

"You brought me all the books in Zangshuge. There are a lot of medical books here, isn't it enough for me to be self-taught?" Lu Xue asked.

He was imprisoned in the cold palace. Xie Chongjin was afraid that he would be bored, so he found many books for him to read.Astronomy and geography, Qimen Dunjia, distinguishing hundreds of herbs, folk tales, everything that one expects to find.Lu Xuechao read all of these, and learned a lot about them.

Of course, no matter how talented he is, he can't be proficient just by reading books. This is the accumulation of knowledge from countless lifetimes.In the world where Lu Xuechao was not thrown into the cold palace, he would seek out capable people from all over the world to learn scriptures, and would often go to the imperial hospital to consult imperial physicians.Don't overwhelm yourself with too many skills, the more he knows, the greater the chance of winning against the manipulator behind the scenes.

Xie Chongjin was speechless for a while: "Your grand master has praised you for being smart since you were young. I refused to accept it at first, but now I really feel ashamed."

"You haven't finished talking about how you regained your freedom." Lu Xuechao reminded.

Xie Chongjin was silent.

He hadn't thought about telling the whole truth.

In the memorial he got - he would like to call it a heavenly book, and in the dream he had last night, he roughly knew the existence of players, and knew that their world was treated as a game, and they were all played by players at will character in the play.

I also know that they are not only in this life, but there are thousands of lives before them, and most of them have not died well.

Xie Chongjin felt pain in his heart, not only because of the ridiculous fate of being played with by the applause, but also because in those worlds, Lu Xuechao was too miserable.

Qing Shu is obviously such a person who is afraid of pain.

But in those worlds, he died over and over again, probably because of his own orders.Those overwhelming and shocking blood colors made Xie Chongjin shudder when he thought about them.

What he was most thankful for after waking up was the clarity of this world, and he hadn't experienced what he had experienced in his dreams.

There was no inexplicable sudden death, nor was he gifted to death.He didn't want Lu Xuechao to know about those painful experiences.

Too painful a memory, he can bear it alone.

However, how clever Lu Xuechao is, and how well he understands Xie Chongjin.Seeing Xie Chongjin hesitate, he asked, "Are you also awakened?"

Xie Chongjin was taken aback: "Awakened?"

Lu Xuechao calmly said: "I just had a dream, dreaming about the memories of previous lifetimes."

The hand holding him in his arms tightened suddenly, and Lu Xuechao could feel the stiff body of the person behind him.

"Huaiyun?"

Xie Chongjin didn't speak, but hugged Lu Xuechao tightly without saying a word.

Lu Xue paused and said, "Don't cry."

"Didn't I say it? I never blamed you, not just these three years."

"Besides, if you kill me, I will stab you to death, no one owes anyone..."

"..."

Lu Xuechao sighed lightly: "Forget it, cry."