sinovels Chapter 105 105
Chapter 105 105
After eight o'clock in the evening, Yang Shaoqing walked out of the hospital with a lunch box. He was forced by Yang's mother to eat two bowls of chicken soup and rice. The phone in his pocket vibrated.
Yang Shaoqing took out the phone expressionlessly and saw that it was a number belonging to a coastal city in the south. He frowned and waited for it to ring again for a few seconds before answering the phone.
It was very quiet on the other end of the phone, no one spoke, not even the sound of human breathing.
"Which one?" Yang Shaoqing asked impatiently.
Ever since I started this business, many people have spent money to buy news about him from Director Tian. Occasionally, harassing calls would come in, and Yang Shaoqing would not answer them normally, but for some reason today, he answered on a whim took this call.
There was still no one talking on the other end of the phone, it was as quiet as if Yang Shaoqing's cell phone was turned off, and answering the call was just an illusion.
When Yang Shaoqing wanted to question the other party again, a possibility floated through his mind, and he grasped it with super fast reaction and precision.
Yang Shaoqing's breathing was stagnant, and his footsteps stopped. He stood on a street near the hospital, uncontrollably thinking about who the person on the opposite side might be.
Could it be Jiang Qixiao?
can you?
"...Jiang Qixiao?" Yang Shaoqing asked in a trembling voice.
silence.
Still silent.
"You..." Yang Shaoqing opened his mouth, his heart was beating like a drum, and now he wasn't sure if the other party was Jiang Qixiao, but he didn't want to hang up the phone.
After another minute, the emotions that had been suppressed for a long time suddenly broke out, defeating all his disguises, his limbs were numb, and his nose hurt.
The first thing he showed was not howling, but dazed.
From the moment Jiang Qixiao left, from the moment his mother was diagnosed with lung cancer, from the moment he put on those black gloves, he bid farewell to his former self, and he could only become stronger by himself. I can only hold on.
There is no one to rely on for him.
Who can he rely on?Are Jiang Qixiao's parents?Dad Yang?Or his biological mother?
At this time, Yang Shaoqing suddenly felt very tired, really tired. After staying in the dark world for so long, he felt tired for the first time.
"Jiang Qixiao." Yang Shaoqing's tone became very certain, as if he had found evidence in a few seconds to prove that the other party was the person he was thinking of, his chest was suffocating, and heaved violently After a few breaths, the breathing between the nostrils was no longer stable, and he said cautiously: "You...you don't want me?"
There was a slight panting sound from the opposite side, but no words were spoken.
"You...why are you so ruthless, you don't even want to say it to your face, didn't you agree to walk with me all the way? How long has it been...you are such a liar." Yang Shaoqing smiled lowly The voice was full of bitterness, "Just because my mother... just because she let you go, did you leave me without hesitation and let me face all this alone? You... so selfish, really nice Selfish."
"My mother's examination results came out. She had lung cancer. She had an operation and chemotherapy. At the beginning, the situation was well controlled, but...someone went to the hospital to stimulate her, and her condition worsened...the doctor said, any time Maybe..." Yang Shaoqing said slowly, "Do you know who stimulated her? It was a person who claimed to be my biological mother. Her name was Qiu Rou. She said my name was Qiu Hang. She said I was her. The child who was taken away in the hospital years ago."
"You can't imagine how much her face looks like mine... The results of the paternity test will come out this week, but you don't need to personally test it, in fact... I know she is my biological mother, let me just intuit it. "Yang Shaoqing walked to a deserted place by the side of the road and squatted down, sighed, and clenched his fingers on the phone, "Qiu Hang...Qiu...Hang, Qiu Hang."
"This is my name. This is my real name. You have to remember it well. It turns out that my name is not Yang Shaoqing, but Qiu Hang."
"Recently, I was playing black boxing at Curator Tian's place. I didn't want to tell you, but you don't want to talk now, so I'll just say something casually. Mom needs a lot of money for surgery. I didn't tell your parents and sister Zirui. I told them that they would definitely lend me a lot of money, and you...you'll share it with me...I don't want to."
"In the beginning, I went to restaurants to serve dishes and wash vegetables. I was very tired at work, and it was very difficult to earn money. Many people would deliberately ask me to order food and delay time. I didn't understand why they did this. Anyway...it was annoying. Yes, I also went to places where models were needed in school clubs, and I earned some small money, which couldn't cover my mother's expenses in the hospital."
"I had no choice but to agree to Director Tian, oh yes, I didn't ask Qiu Rou for money, I don't think she owes me anything, and she doesn't owe Mom anything, and she hates them very much, so she has no obligation to borrow from her, punching ...It's much easier than serving a plate. I have been exposed to this since I was a child, and I won't suffer. Don't worry, don't worry about me..."
Yang Shaoqing suddenly smiled, "Look at what I said...don't mind me, I just want you not to worry about me, if you are not worried anymore...you should not be worried long ago, when I Did not say."
"In the three months since you left, you haven't called me once, and you haven't given me any news. What am I expecting? You are such a cruel person, how could you worry about my life? I, how could you feel sorry for me, don't you...? I'm being self-indulgent..."
Yang Shaoqing's voice gradually choked, and he said the last words word by word, the flesh on his face was very stiff, the muscles were pulling and shaking all the time, he had to sigh and relax before continuing to finish the next words.
"It was me at the beginning, I pretended to be affectionate, and wanted to be with you...I'm sorry, I was the one who pestered you, annoyed you, troubled you." Yang Shaoqing bit his lower lip as hard as he could, and let go of the lunch box with the other hand , gently covering his eyes, "I'm sorry, I'm ignorant, it's me... wishful thinking, I'm too naive, I always talk about my whole life, which puts you under a lot of pressure."
"I'm sorry, I always thought you were annoying, always got angry with you, always... called you inhuman, it's all my fault."
"I'm sorry, I'm too young to spend too much money for you, which makes your relationship unsatisfactory."
"I'm sorry, I'm too stubborn and strong, and I don't take your feelings into account many times... I said that I can change what you like, but you haven't said it, so I haven't changed my bad habits..."
"I'm sorry, I didn't handle the relationship at home well, caused you to suffer so much, made you leave your hometown again, and left you alone... I'm sorry."
"I'm sorry, I'm too masculine, let you tolerate me and endure me..."
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" Yang Shaoqing yelled at the phone a few times, jumped up from the ground uncontrollably, and shouted: "I apologize to you! I admit my mistake! I bow my head It's all my fucking fault! All of it! It's all my fucking fault! I'm fucking in love with you! I'm in love with you! What's wrong with me! Huh? You tell me !"
"She knelt down and begged you to go and you just go! She didn't think about me at all! What about me! What about me! You said you love me! Then I knelt down and begged you not to go! Will you feel bad! Will you be sad !You fucking...you fucking don't even want to give me this chance! You...how much do you not love me..."
"What the hell am I... What's wrong with me?" The vision in front of him was blurred, and Yang Shaoqing's jaw line tightened again and again, and he held back again and again, trying to stabilize his voice so that it didn't sound so loud. Shaking, but no, his crying will only get heavier and heavier, "... What's wrong with loving someone?"
"Why did she stop me? Why...why didn't you even discuss with Shang, just...just don't want me. "
"Jiang Qixiao... I really, I really love you very much. You suddenly disappeared in front of my eyes. Did you think about me? Did you think about me? Did you... treat me a little bit Just a little, guilty?"
"Will you? Do you really love me? Or, do you really... love me?"
What's wrong with loving someone?
True love is not guilty, and sinful is not true love.
Jiang Qixiao has always felt this way. He has always believed that only those who do not love will talk about breaking up with their object, such as life and death. Except for death, how can anyone be willing to leave the person they love.
He was wrong, and it turned out that there were.
The love between him and Yang Shaoqing will make others suffer and will be blamed by the society. When an old woman knelt in front of him, he self-righteously chose to leave Yang Shaoqing secretly and cut off the relationship secretly.
Does Jiang Qixiao love Yang Shaoqing?
Love without a doubt.
I love him very much, no less than Yang Shaoqing's love for him.
After listening to Yang Shaoqing's apologies and questioning from the bottom of his heart, he couldn't cry anymore, it was as if thousands of needles were stuck in his throat, and when he opened his mouth, there was severe tearing pain, and he couldn't make any sound.
I never want you to say sorry, I never feel that you are pestering me, I never feel that you are annoying, I never feel that my whole life is pressure, I never feel that you are not happy if you spend less money for me, and I never dislike your stubbornness and love. Be strong and never feel wronged because of you.
Leaving home is my own choice, it has nothing to do with you, you are not wrong.
You have never been self-indulgent, never wishful thinking, I love you too, I really love you too...
Guilt...how could it not be, I wish, wished to multiply the damage you suffered on me, if it could make you feel better, even a little bit, I would be willing, I would even cut my flesh off!I am willing to go through fire and water for you!
Fool... big fool!
Jiang Qixiao's tears slid down from his eyes, big drops stained his clothes, his nose was blocked so he couldn't breathe, he heard Yang Shaoqing on the other end of the phone crying out in pain, and wanted to comfort him, but he couldn't utter a single sound come out.
It hurts too much, my heart really hurts too much.
He couldn't imagine how much suffering Yang Shaoqing had suffered during his disappearance. That Yang Shaoqing, who basically didn't do housework and could only cook, ran to the restaurant to serve dishes?That Yang Shaoqing, who has never been impatient, ran to order food for others to make things difficult for others?That sensible and lovely Yang Shaoqing, ran to such a dark place to fight?
How kind and simple Yang Shaoqing used to be, why...why did these things happen to him?Why not ask him for help?
Oh.
Jiang Qixiao remembered.
It was he who abandoned Yang Shaoqing first, and it was he who made Yang Shaoqing unable to contact him.
So who is to blame for all this.
Yang Shaoqing didn't speak any more, and kept crying sadly. Jiang Qixiao was so heartbroken that he couldn't listen anymore, so he hung up the phone with a snap.
He is going to find Yang Shaoqing!He is going to accompany Yang Shaoqing!He wants to stand by Yang Shaoqing's side!
He once promised to spend the difficult time with Yang Shaoqing, he can't just run away like this...
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm the one who should say sorry...
sorry, I do not know……
I don't know that after I left, you have suffered so much and still can't find me, sorry...
Jiang Qixiao looked painful and crazy, quickly packed up two pieces of clothes, picked up Jiang Xiaohua and put him in the pet hospital, then boarded the nearest plane and set foot on the way home.
Wait for me... Shaoqing, wait for me!
This time, for you, I will no longer shrink back, instead I can do anything for you!
After Yang Shaoqing was hung up, he looked at the phone in astonishment, as if he couldn't believe that Jiang Qixiao just hung up the phone just like that, he even stopped crying.
He gasped heavily in a daze, his stomach churned for a while, then he suddenly bent down and vomited out all the chicken soup he had filled for dinner.