sleepy sand

Chapter 1

Trapped Sand Author: Cao Han

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He is trapped in a period of youthful memories and cannot extricate himself. . . . .

Content tag: feel lost

Chapter 1

sleepy sand

Time never stands still.

It is cruel and fair at the same time.

Time will not stop for anyone, it always follows its own trajectory and speed.

And I've been begging for it to stay.

I was sitting on the sofa in the living room, and I kept playing with an hourglass in my hand.

This hourglass was given to me by Lulu for my 16th birthday 16 years ago.At that time, I only thought it was something for girls, but Lulu insisted that it was to let me, who lives in a trance, understand the preciousness of time.I don't know if time is short and ruthless. For more than ten years, I have been fond of playing with it non-stop, thinking nothing of it, just watching the fine sand flow down slowly, repeating it again and again, forgetting everything every time, looking back Come to think of it, it will be an hour or two later.This has become natural from habit, just like now, I can't stop, or maybe I don't want to stop at all?

"Nanying, Nanying!"

...someone is calling me?It's time for me to put down the hourglass in my hand and return to reality.

"Lulu, are you dressed up?"

Every time I fall into the hourglass world, fortunately, she wakes me up tirelessly.

She, Lu Lu, whose real name is Lu Ping, is my childhood sweetheart, my bosom friend for many years, and now my cohabiting girlfriend.She is a very beautiful woman. Today, she has become more mature and stable after deliberately dressing up. She is very different from her usual days.She is a forever young person. Even though she is indeed 32 years old now, the playfulness and childishness in her eyes has not been removed for many years. Is this why so many people love her with all their hearts?

"What are you looking at, fascinated by me?"

She reached out and ruffled my hair.

"What do you say?"

I just smiled lightly. Many times I use this kind of smile to dismiss questions that are difficult to answer and I don’t want to explain. This is my habit.And many female friends told me that the most charming thing about me is my casual attitude and breezy smile.

"You, you will only be fascinated by that hourglass!"

I stood up and went to the mirror, and ran my hands through my hair. I don’t pay much attention to my appearance, and I usually wear a mess of hair when I go to work. I just managed to subdue this bird’s nest after working hard for more than half an hour.But Lulu is amazing, and my efforts were wasted in less than three seconds.

"Hey!"

"Yeah, maybe when I look at the hourglass, I feel that time can stop."

"nonsense!"

I laugh, I am afraid that only I will feel that time can stop.

I didn't explain, and Lulu didn't ask anymore, and came over to help me comb my hair.

"At least tidy up, you are a famous handsome guy in our high school!"

"Lulu, I don't want to join the class reunion anymore."

I was terrified by my weak tone.Is this me, is that free and easy man?

"You have no future!" Lulu raised his head and gave me a white look, "Are you afraid? You are afraid of going back to the past; afraid of facing Xu Dong; afraid of facing your own heart. You are an out-and-out coward, On the one hand, you want to stay, but on the other hand, you dare not face it, you hypocritical fellow!"

My face was ridiculously red, and I whispered: "Lulu, you are always so cruel, always tearing out my small and sad self mercilessly, and spreading it out in the sun, piercing my skin to the point. camouflage."

"Because I love you."

"I see."

She patted my face like a mother talking to her son.

"Well, we have to hurry up or we'll be late."

Homecoming is one of the most boring things I know.

Everyone who has carefully crafted their image for this day, the person who is afraid of being found mediocre, the person who wants to show off in front of old classmates, the person who is worried about being made fun of, all the people gathered together, talking about the pre-programmed The lines, with a hypocritical smile, interesting?And the most ridiculous thing is that people like me don't even dare to participate or walk into this group of people.

"Han Nanying? Lu Ping?"

As soon as we walked into the bar we had an appointment with, we were approached by a very domestic looking man, I can't remember who he was.

"It's Li Liqi, our monitor."

Lulu reminded me softly in my ear, and then I remembered the annoying monitor who looked like a big brother back then.

On the day when high school officially started, I stepped into the campus with Lu Lu, and immediately attracted everyone's attention.The combination of handsome men and beautiful women has always been the envy of people. Although I am not the kind of handsome guy who makes people stunned, Lulu is definitely a beautiful girl who will make all boys look down on him, so I have been used to other people since I was a child. The gaze cast on us.

Lulu and I are both in this class in Senior One (6). This is the fate of the two of us. It should be a lot of fate to be in the same class from elementary school to high school.

As soon as we entered the classroom, Li Liqi, the squad leader elected yesterday, came over and greeted us warmly.Under Lulu's many years of education, I am already very good at greeting strangers.The three of us quickly chatted, introduced each other, and even chatted about life in junior high school.And I actually don't like to talk about my personal affairs very much, but Li Liqi put on the posture of a big brother, insisting on asking questions.In the next three years, he gave full play to his mother-in-law and mother's personality, and always played the role of "housekeeper" in the class. He had to intervene in every student's life and study.

I don't like Li Liqi because of his meddling temperament, and because he always wants to see through me and interpret my heart, and always regards himself as my good friend.

"Nanying! Lulu!"

"Hi, Nan Ying, how are you doing?"

"Nan Ying!"

……

I always knew that I was not very popular, but I never thought that it would last for so many years. Facing the people rushing over, I felt a sense of accomplishment in my heart. Of course, it was even more impossible for them to know that if there was no Lulu to remind me, I would Can't remember their names at all.

I've been like this for years, it's just that people can't see through me, I've cultivated myself to be knowledgeable, talkative, funny, easy to get along with, I've been successful, I do like to chat, and I like to be with a group of people I feel that I enjoy the moment of being in control of the emotions of those around me. When I see them getting excited, depressed, and laughing because of my words, I really feel extremely happy and satisfied.Because I can easily grasp the emotions of others, I am very popular. I have been a prominent member of the crowd since I was a child.Some people naturally like to be the leader in the group and use various means to dominate others. I am such a person. I make others depend on me and I control their emotional ups and downs.

"Nan Ying, what are you doing now?"

"Spoofing. Use this face and this mouth to cheat some money."

"Ha ha……"

"Stop kidding, seriously, what are you doing?"

"It's really like this. Didn't you see my serious expression?"

Lu Lu walked over with a smile, and explained: "He is the manager of the public relations department of the advertising company, and he has done a very successful job!"

"I want to know that Nanying is a smart person. Among so many people in our class, we are all optimistic about Nanying!"

I smiled and said: "Don't praise me, I can't stand people's praise. And my grades back then were not good."

I have never liked studying, and I have never longed for school and homework. Maybe most people are like me?But I can see that some people really love learning. Li Liqi is one of them. He always explained the infinite benefits and fun of learning to my ears like a sparrow. He said that he thinks that only those who have knowledge can control their own lives. , so he worked hard to learn all kinds of knowledge, just to realize his ideal.But no matter what he said, I still couldn't concentrate on attending class.But maybe I really have some cleverness. My grades have always been in the upper middle class. To be honest, I have never worked hard, but I can achieve more than [-] points.Isn't this too unfair? I don't like reading, but I can be enviable. Some people spend all their time studying hard, but they still learn only a little.

I have never really liked anything since I was a child. No matter what I am doing, I find that I can do it well with only [-]% or [-]% of my strength. The feeling is only when I am exposed to a new thing, but soon I grasped the general idea of ​​it, and then I put it aside.Learning is easy for me, so I can't like it.Very conceited?True, but it is true.However, thinking about it now, and because of this, I have never mastered one thing [-]%.

"Lu Ping, you and Nanying are still as good as before!"

Lulu was chatting with a group of married women not far away, she was always the most eye-catching one among them, not pretentious, not pretentious, independent, never dependent on others for survival.She is my good friend from childhood to most.

"Nan Ying, you only want to be with me." Lu Lu winked at me, which drew laughter from the people around. "But Miss Ben's suitors are so many that it takes wagons to count." Her words aroused the laughter of the crowd, as well as the admiration of the men and the envy of the women.

"Han Nanying, you are always enviable, you got all the school belles of our school."

I still laugh and use beer to pay homage to this man who used to be like so many boys.